There. Are you happy? That you learned that you were right,
that it was true?
That he would take me under, and beat me sometimes too?
Your snide "I told you so's"
and my hurt, underestimated, far down below.
The twisted comfort in knowing " NOBODY KNOWS!"..
My own personalized, and cozy...death row.
Don't be surprised if I don't come around.
If my hopes, my laughter, my love,..
will not be found.
I rose up from the ground,
cracked, withered and scorned.
Broken, whipped, and bleeding from thorns.
Naked, raped, scarred and torn.
In an abandoned house
No windows, no door.
I do not want to be here anymore.
Anyone can come in, take a good look around...
Im stuck here, held down, chained and bound.
No room to run, and no space to hide...
..... this is what happened while i lied.
Swallow me down, and spit me up too.
You'd probably throw up,
if you really knew.
Take me and smother me,
pass me around.
I'm just a lonely dark mark,.. c'mon, smudge me out.
To know me is to love me,
to turn me upside down.
Wreck me, cut me, and then strip me down.
Turn you loose and leave me in this bitch town.
C'mon, keep cranking,
keep the whores running round.
Cogs in your sick and twisted machine,
your sunken cheeks, doped up face and spirit mean.
Your smell, it reeks.
My eyes, they leak.
Your spoiled rotten treats and your ugly, nightly beats.
For as long as i live, and yet, maybe more,
I will never again let you step past my door.
I'll have some fun, chase you, and laugh when you try to run.
I'll catch you, and hold you down.
Ill laugh when your hurt, and like me, when you scream, no one will hear you.
I'll have my turn and burn your name onto my kitchen floor,
and once more, ill break down your door.
Oh, C' MON!, i DARE YOU.. haha, oh yeah? you wanna BET?
I have a bullet with your name on it, it says...
....." Hey, are you having fun YET?? "
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Shelby Treble / Blog
Variety of Sadness
There. Are you happy? That you learned that you were right, that it was true? That he would take me under, and beat me sometimes too? Your snide "I told you so's" and my hurt, underestimated, far down below. The twisted comfort in knowing " NOBODY KNOWS!".. My own personalized, and cozy...death row. Don't be surprised if I don't come around. If my hopes, my laughter, my love,.. will not be found. I rose up from the ground, cracked, withered and scorned. Broken, whipped, and bleeding from thorns. Naked, raped, scarred and torn. In an abandoned house No windows, no door. I do not want to be here anymore. Anyone can come in, take a good look around... Im stuck here, held down, chained and bound. No room to run, and no space to hide... ..... this is what happened while i lied. Swallow me down, and spit me up too. You'd probably throw up, if you really knew. Take me and smother me, pass me around. I'm just a lonely dark mark,.. c'mon, smudge me out. To know me is to love me, to turn me upside down. Wreck me, cut me, and then strip me down. Turn you loose and leave me in this bitch town. C'mon, keep cranking, keep the whores running round. Cogs in your sick and twisted machine, your sunken cheeks, doped up face and spirit mean. Your smell, it reeks. My eyes, they leak. Your spoiled rotten treats and your ugly, nightly beats. For as long as i live, and yet, maybe more, I will never again let you step past my door. I'll have some fun, chase you, and laugh when you try to run. I'll catch you, and hold you down. Ill laugh when your hurt, and like me, when you scream, no one will hear you. I'll have my turn and burn your name onto my kitchen floor, and once more, ill break down your door. Oh, C' MON!, i DARE YOU.. haha, oh yeah? you wanna BET? I have a bullet with your name on it, it says... ....." Hey, are you having fun YET?? "
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Ballad 15
Iron bars severed. And I am now free. The air, the satin ribbon, the heat. Sunshine,i want that most. I long for it. I taste it. I dream it. It whispers in my ear at midnight and when i am alone. My secret, heavy, daunting. Haunting. Here it comes, i can sense it. here it comes, just around the corner, and wanted, yet, even more. Here it is, its at my door. Oh, sweet abyss, hold me close, for I have waited so long and suffered so much in silence. Tightly woven strings, loosed. lace cut. pig stuck, bleeding its bowles down the drain. Before i even sense it, it strikes me, stops me in my wittled, burned out tracks. heavy stench of uncertainty and the grey area of confusion. I am falling, falling, falling. deep down into the gut of despair. Loneliness is at the bottom, holding out his razored, outstretched arms. Cold, dank, dark and deep. I cannot even sleep. Aching bones, secrets. keep. black sheep left his ugly,divided footprints behind. Midnight wool pulled over my swollen, sunkin eyes. I cannot rise. I cannot breathe. I cannot erase his vulgar seed. love is but a memory now, a shadow in the deep. A door i so desperately claw to open, but find I have no key. Bleeding, worn out peices of broken, torn up me. I would have, could have, SHOULD have been awesome. But just like him, my heart was indeed, playing Opossum. I am worth nothing now. He left me empty, old, used. and cheap. I did not even have a say... I did not want ME to turn out this way..
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Salt, and Sweat.
Lay your lips upon my name, and breathe in my lonely smile. Let your hands run slowly over my tenacity, Let them hold the mounds of my curiosity. Let them unfasten my waiting innocence, and unbuckle my subsiding fear. Let your hands slide up my imagination and inch inside my wet integrity. Let them relish in the swelter of my jovial freedom, and linger in my accepted truths. Dip your fingers into my honeyed longing and slick, craved thrill. Spread wide my pining dreams, and taste my tender thoughts. Lick at my sanity, and caress my ample lies. Straddle my intuision and ease yourself into my panting envy. Handle my sympathy and glide your hands down my delight. Push your way deep inside my ferocity and feel the burning desire of my passion. Stumble into my troubled scorn and feel the volptuousness of my creed. Charge again into my wild optimism and revel in my vicious enthrallment. Release your tension inside my gourmet pleasure. And crave my dollup of desire. And release me drippingly from euphoria. Dig your fingers into my thick cryptic sentimentality. And drink in my exotic tenderness. Feel the drumming beat and exasperation of my satisfaction, My exhalted sweet breath. I let you in.
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What I hoped in My Mind what it would feel like. ♡
Hair blowing in the wind Feathers, wispy on my bare skin. Heat kisses my right thigh. Elongated neck. Subtle movements and hushed desire. So brilliant. Soothing push. Hush hush. Gentle humming of your hands Hair like ribbons laced around my fingers, Damp faces gleaming in the light. Something unspoken in your eyes. Night air like a cool drink on a hot summers day. Your flesh like an ice cube, Melting into mine. Swift cry. Rabbit heart Dew settles on my lips And you cover them with kisses. Citrus for my senses. Beaded copper of your skin, the milky white that is mine own. Marbled configuration that is ours only. Scars blend to one another They reveal your age. Time could not keep me from you. Cupped flesh. Laced tongue. Scorching and tangy. Sweat of your brow. So determined. Trickles past your navel, smooth like a paved road. Crooning after sunset. Courage could not have a more beautiful face. Scent like raw sugar. Pure honey. Steadfastness of your temple. Legs like oak, Scent like pine. Eyes like rain. ..lover of mine.
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