Tootflie Rock Pop part 4

once this thing had gotten in my eyes

i could not lose a burning dry feeling inside them.

this is one way to know it is there.

and it feels like your eye lens is stuck.

and your iris will not close like the camera aperture is jammed.

at some point i found squeezing carefully the eye i could snap the lock and the lens would return to its normal flexible nature

i recall doing this on a mental hospital "visit"

i risked eye damage

i did it courageously

never damaged my eyes

and somehow i know i had to do it and i knew something foreign was in me causing it.

i see perfectly at my age never use glasses

and dont ever expect to need them

but when i would look into some peoples

eyes.

i would see this "shaft of broken glass" kind of light coming at me.

and when it hit my eyes

they became "crossed"

with this lock up feeling

not being able to focus nor adjust brightness

and i would have to squeeze a bit, to pop it off, i felt like it hurt something

i feared i could crack something

but nothing bad ever happened and i continued to see perfectly

as i do now.

i even recall being at the Town Center Mall in boca

my wife and i were shopping perhaps for perfume or watches at burdines

i always tried to avoid direct eye contact with strangers

because that could trigger the "transfer"

and i would have to do my eye fix

or suffer having uncomfortable eyes

other people probably would buy eyeglasses and eye drops

both of those devices in my opinion work more to make you even more blind.

two staff members female selling products

one somehow caught my eye and got "caught in my eye"

i "shook it off with my trick"

then another hit me with this "thing"

and it stuck.

my trick did not even work

i was stuck

hoping it would wear off later

flushing eyes with water

can help

my mom would always tell me even

flushing eyes with water with powdered vitamin C is good

she still does thie regularly.

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Tootflie Rock Pop part 3

we went over to the window

grandma had a beautiful smile

and excitedly she said

look i want to show you something

at the window

she pulled aside the drapes

and outside it was dark

so dark you could see absolutely nothing.

and she might have said

See look

its so dark you cant see a thing out there or maybe she said outside.

do you know what thats called

or maybe

do you know what they call that

of course i didnt know

maybe i even confirmed with

no grandma what ?

its called "she blurted something in hungarian"

i cant be sure if she told me in english first however then offered the hungarian word.

let me make a best guess

seems more like she said it in english first with her hungarian accept

its called "pitch black" !

and then a moment later

do you want to know what thats called in hungarian ?

its called "and i would have to look up the word"

its koromsötét

probably pronouced

CHROME SOW TET

which also means

jet black.

so pitch and jet must be synonyms.

korona

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I remember a phase

"old kronie"

sounds like

OLD CROW KNEE

This derives from Greek khronios 'long-lasting', which was based on khronos 'time'. In the 17th century crony was Cambridge University slang for 'an old friend' or 'a contemporary'. Chum is the Oxford University equivalent. crony - definition of crony in English from the Oxford dictionary www.oxforddictionaries.com/us/definition/.../cronyOxfordDictionaries.com

the only thing i can connect a dot here about

is that this creature lives in pitch black.

and that it can live forever.

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Tootflie Rock Pop continued

however old a child is when about 3 feet tall.

that is how he appeared standing there

said nothing

looked a little like oriental a "confucious" look.

and apparently he hid in the kitchen

for its not like he was walking around

while

the herbalife man was discussing his business

to my parents in the living room on the couch on my left

while i sat in a comfy type arm chair

to the right of my parents

the herbalife man

was in a chair could even have been a fold up chair

dont recall

opposite to my parents and me.

or it was a normal chair and one he usual sat in.

sorry not every detail is clear and that one is probably irrelevant.

when i stared in shock at this furry short man

in a robe only

i got scared so much i was already speechless

because i had apparently fallen asleep while watching John Hackman the herbalife man

as he was talking to my parents

as i fell asleep

i thought he was still looking at me in fact staring at me

in my "dream" for which now i did not know i had been sleeping

my parents commented that my eyes were in fact closed

to me i thought i had never closed them at all.

in fact i decided to have a stare down with the man

and it appeared he was staring back at me

as we stared

his face slowly started changing

his eyes became bigger and the stare more intense

like the expression "you could see the whites of his eyes:

then his face has a blush coming on.

turning reddish

i did not know what to expect i was getting more scared

but a voice advised

keep staring

keep staring

and i did what it said

not even blinking

for which

the image of the man never blinked either.

and as i kept staring

his face become more gruesome

teeth became more pronounced

i was extremely scared and a chill was coming over me much like i have now thinking about it

and this chill is even in our house here today

yes it is still cold out.

is that a good excuse however ?

then suddenly like a "jack in the box"

i saw only a face

up close and personal

as if it were only inches from your own face.

resembling a bison skull with large white eye balls without sockets

there were horn like things from the top of the head

much where you expect horns on say a reindeer.

and i think there were others too around the head

all loose more like tentacals

from the mouth

dont recall teeth

perhaps there were

but what my eyes were drawn to focus upon was a tongue very thin hanging from the mouth area much like a lizard tongue

extremely long

curling about near the end

rounded at the tip

and the face had a smile on it

reminding me of ozzys lyrics

"satins there and he is smiling"

in my mind

i asked myself

"who are you"

well a bit later

as we were walking out to go home

for which instead we went to the emergency room

for the recommendation is that i had not got much sleep the past few days

and maybe the product had affected me somehow

and someone should "look me over"

and for deciding to make a trip to the emergency room

instead of just GOING HOME

AND ALL OF US GETTING SOME REST

MY LIFE HAS BEEN A SEEMINGLY ENDLESS ORDEAL OF PLAYING THE "ROLE" OF A MENTALLY ILL PERSON

FOR WHAT MUST HAVE BEEN MY CONSEQUENCES FOR HAVING

BEEN CURIOUS OVER A BUSINESS CARD

LEFT ON THE PARKING LOT OF THE UNIVERSITY CENTER AT F.A.U.

which would only have interested anyone who was more interested in making money

than earning an honest days work.

it was right after i saw that face

i tried to open my eyes or wake myself up

for surely i must be dreaming i now realized

i had to fight hard to break free from this image like a few inches from me

and i noticed then that around the face

was only darkness

and complete darkness

pitch black

a term i first heard

at my mothers moms home

before she moved in with us

after grandpa sam died.

my grandma that day was excited to show me something

i might have been busy watching the muppets on her television

she inticed

come here dale

come to the window

we went together

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Tootflie Rock Pop

this morning while seeing "stars" in my head

suddenly echos in my "ears"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

,,,,,

i did not recognize "the voice"

i ask in my mind "who are you"

....

"We brought it back from the moon"

Its Buzz Alrdin

Its Buzz Alrdin

Its Buzz Alrdin

Its Buzz Alrdin

....

one more part of that experience i recall i wish to insert to make this complete now as i revise this now.

i ask in my mind "who are you"

and also hazarded a guess ....

"are you neil armstrong ?"

and as i was asking who it was before i even finished the thought,

like an audible beacon

the voice chimed

in perfect rhythm and evenly spaced

as he had done for the message being sent to me yesterday morning ....

Its Buzz Alrdin

Its Buzz Alrdin

Its Buzz Alrdin

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

"We brought it back from the moon"

this went on for several minutes.

and then finally just stopped

and it was done.

i am back to add something more.

i JUST GOOGLED "BUZZ ALDRIN"

I looked for words on the search page results for "we brought it back from the moon"

nothing caught my eye.

then I saw the larger picture of him and older picture on the left of the group of pictures

It is in his eyes.

like

"smoke gets in your eyes"

and now

i sense

it is in my eyes

yet again.

but i can break it down now and "disarm" it from overcoming me.

but this IS WHAT IS DRIVING OUR ANGER AND MADNESS

and i could not escape it whenever it had found me.

and now i know

why i first saw it in the eyes

of my dads electrician friends wife in our driveway that day.

and then in my parents eyes

and

later

when i looked in the mirror

wait

no

i had it before them

i must have

my first trip to the mental hospital

for which the only strange contact

i had

was the man who made me an herbalife distributor

his wife

and a curious short old man who they were taking care of like a charity case.

this short man scared the crap out of me

cause i was not expecting anyone else in their kitchen

i never felt his presence

perhaps that is why

and when i looked at this man

who had lots of scraggly white hair beard and mustache

very short man

he was different

but on an invisible level

anyone remember the story of KC ?

or is it Casey.

i was told this in grade school.

casey was special he could see energy fields called auras around people particularly around their head

he flew a lot when traveling

when he would get on the plane he could see life in every passenger

for there was that "spacecadet glow" around them

one day he was boarding a flight

and something hit him strangley

then he figured out what was missing.

no one on the plane had the usual "glow" for which he could "see"

something made him decide

that maybe he should take a different flight.

that plane he "passed up"

the flight never arrived at its destination

for the plane crashed

and all passengers were killed

there were NO SURVIVORS.

this very short man in the kitchen who looked so old and shriveled up like the life had been sucked out of him.

had no life force around him

to defract any light at all

for which i think we all can see

but when everyone you know

has it

you dont know you have the power

but when its not there

i believe we all have the power to notice that something is different

its like all of a sudden

"the sharpness knob of the picture was turned to 100 percent"

reality was all to real now.

and it freaked me out like i was sure this man was a monster even though he was very very short 3 to 4 feet tall.

comically

he had a glass of milk in his hand and was drinking it.

as if he were their child of oh i dont know 5 years 8 years of age ?

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Sometimes there is no time

To sample EVERY LAST POSSIBILITY.

That is why TRUST was CREATED.

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Without Trust ....

There is no bottom to HELL.

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Q: What is the real reason anybody would want to go to a doctor ?

Because they figger with a note from the doctor, they can skip school and work.

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we doe kneed know fuch king coor all we kneed is sum ting poor get it ?

when you make it make it pure.

when you get it get it pure

seek it

find it

at

puredel.com

get it !

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Workin things out with Whitney tonight ....

The Sweetest Love

by

Whitney Houston

Warm your youthful Liveliness to keep You as you Truly are

lets get real, here and now Why tippy toe ? and do it in shadows ?

Love must shine. We must succeed. Facing facts, beyond beliefs.

We can scheme. its hurting us. Theres even a price for dignity !

Lets see the Sweetest Love as what We Can Achieve.

Always to love ourselves Will keep us simply Being "Me".

The Sweetest Love !

Is all We need in Us.

We got to love ourself. and Turn life into what will be.

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BUT WAIT THERES MORE AND YOU NEED TO HEAR THIS LISTEN AND UPDATE YOUR VALUES

SO WOULDNT IT BE NICE TO NOT HAVE TO SAY "SHIT HAPPENS" FINISH YOUR BEER AND PASS OUT ONLY TO FIND THE SHIT IS STILL THERE THE NEXT MORNING EVEN IF YOU NOW FORGOT THAT FOR A WHILE OR IT DOESNT SMELL RIGHT NOW.

IT IS STILL GROWING DAILY UNTIL YOU MOP IT UP..

DONT TELL ME SHIT CANT GROW I SEEN IT !

DONT WAIT UNTIL THE NUCLEAR WASTE DUMP ON THE FAR SIDE OF YOUR CEREBRUM EXPLODES AND YOU ARE HURLED INTO NEVER NEVER LAND.

ALA SPACE 1999

NOPE,

WORK TO CLEAN UP THE SHIT YOU ALREADY GOT THERE

AND FIND TIME TO CURB YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS SO THEY DONT COME HOME LIKE SAYING LOOK DADDY I FOUND SOME "GOOD SHIT" OUT THERE TODAY, AS THEY NOW WANT TO GIVE YOU A BIG KISS PERHAPS AND THEY DIDNT EVEN WIPE THE EXCESS SMEAR OF SHIT FROM THEIR MOUTH,

OK ITHINK WE ARE DONE HERE,

FOR NOW MEN LAWS HAVE BEEN NOT IN OUR FAVOR TO CONTROL OUR HOME IT IS OUR FAULT WE WERE LAZY WE NEEDED SEX WE DIDNT TAKE THE TIME TO KNOW WHAT REALLY GOES ON OUT THERE IN THE BIG WORLD UNTIL IT HIT US SQUARELY BETWEEN THE EYES LIKE A LUGAR.

WE ONLY SHOWED TO THE REST OF OUR FAMILIES AND THE WORLD THAT ALL WE CAN BE IS MENTAL DELUSIONED AND IRRESPONSIBLE AND EVEN IF WE TRIED OUR HARDEST

IF WE HAVE A WIFE WHO REALLY DOES NOT CARE TO BE A TRUE FRIEND AND IS MORE INTERESTED LIKE MANY IN GETTING ONLY WHAT THEY WANT AND THAT ALSO COULD BE OUR FAULT GUYS CAUSE WE TOO WHEN WE GET HORNY DEMONSTRATE TO THEM THAT AT THAT MOMENT WE ARE ONLY INTERESTED IN WHAT WE WANT.

AND SO A BAD WIFE CAN ALSO ATTEMPT TO SHOW TO OTHER THAT YOU DO PERHAPS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO "KEEP THE FORT" FOR BY DOING THAT THEY GET TO KEEP THE TITLE OF PRESIDENT LIKE MAYBE MORE THAN A FOUR YEAR TERM.

WHILE YOU COULD BE DOING YOUR SHARE AT HOME AND ALSO WORKING HARD MAKES NO DIFFERENCE

YOU MIGHT FIND IT WISE TO KEEP PROOF OF WHAT YOU DO PARTICULARLY IF YOUR REPUTATION IS NOT A HOT ONE

YOU KNOW A MENTAL ILLNESS RECORD A CRIMINAL RECORD AN UNEMPLOYMENT RECORD

ANYTHING NEGATIVE CAN AND WILL BE USED AGAINST YOU WHEN COURTING A WOMAN AND OF COURSE EVEN AFTER YOU CONQUERED HERL

BRAZILAIN HOUSKEEPERS ARE NOT STUPID

I WORKED WITH ONE ONE DAY AS JUST A FAVOR TO CLEAN AN OFFICE

THEY USE THEIR CELL PHONE BEFORE THEY CLEAN ANYTHING AND TAKE PICTURES BEFOREHAND AND THEN WHEN THE PLACE IS CLEAN.

I WONDERED AT THE TIME WHY

YOU THINK YOU CAN BE A TRUSTED EMPLOYEE !

GOT NOTHIN TO DO WITH IT ! ITS THE EMPLOYEE THAT CANNOT TRUST THE MANAGER OF THE BUSINESS OR THE CLIENT OF THE PLACE THEY ARE HOUSEKEEPING !

THE NEED THE COMFORT OF PROOF

OR PEOPLE WILL WONDER IF THEY ARE SLACKERS AND DIDNT WORK HARD TO EARN THE WAGES FOR WHAT THEY DO.

WE ARE TOLD IN RELIGIOUS SETTINGS HOW IF WE KEEP OUR GOOD DEEDS TO OURSELF OUR REWARD IS GREATER

CAN YOU SMELL THE BULLSHIT NOW

CAN YOU GET A WHIFF OF THAT CLIT.

MEN

THE FIRST OPEN RELATIONSHIP

WE EVER NEED TO "STEP INTO"

IS NOT WITH A WOMAN AND NOT WITH THE DOGGY DOO DOO OUT ON THE FRONT LAWN OF YOUR HOME WHETHER IT WAS YOUR DOG THAT DID IT OR SOMEONE ELSES AND MAYBE YOU DONT EVEN OWN A DOG.

WE AS MEN NEED AN OPEN RATIONSHIP FIRST WITH MEN AS PRIORITY ABOVE ANY OTHER SPECIES INCLUDING WOMEN AND CHILDREN

FUCK "WOMEN AND CHILDREN FIRST" IN THIS CASE.

FIRST HAS TO COME YOU NEXT HAS TO COME THOSE LIKE YOU THEN WHOM YOU LOVE AND SO ON.

OR IT DONT FLY GUY.

THEY DONT TELL YOU ON THE PLANE TO PUT THE OXYGEN MASK ON YOUR LOVED ONES WHO CANNOT DO IT FOR THEMSELVES FIRST AND ANY IDIOT SHOULD UNDERSTAND WHY LIKE THAT STEWARDESS SHOULD BE WASTING HER RREATH ALREADY.

GET YOURSELF TOGETHER FIRST MAKE THE NEARBY "CONNECTIONS" TO THOSE OF "OUR SPECIES" SO YOU GOT "BACKUP" ON A REIGNY DAY.

BECOME FRIENDS WITH LAW ENFORCEMENT ETC. INSTEAD OF KEEPING THEM SUSPICIOUS THAT THEY GOT TO SHACKLE YOU AND TAKE YOU AWAY EVEN IF YOU DONE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING DESERVING OF THAT.

BE RESPONSIBLE IF THATS NOT POSSIBLE BUB IF YOU GET IN TROUBLE YOU BETTER AT LEAST ACT THE PART.

LEANING ON PEOPLE WHEN YOU CANT EVEN LEAN ON THE NEARBY WALL AND BE STILL STANDING MEANS YOU ARE A TEXTBOOK CONT...

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