Life is such a mystery at times…I often wonder what keeps me going…After so many trials and tribulations, why haven’t I just thrown in the towel and said, “Screw it!!”? You know, I’m still seeking the answer to that question. I talk to my mother and grandmother about the mysteries of life on a regular basis. They tell me I was put on this earth for a reason and I know that has to be true, but on days like today… I wonder what it is that keeps me going. Over the years, I’ve found myself to be the person people come to for the answers, for help, for advice…the funny thing is, I’m still seeking my own answers. Where do I go? Who do I call? Initially, I felt honored and happy that people came to me…my friends, my family, my kids… But now, I feel sad and alone. I cordon myself off in this dark place to keep from feeling used but I am beginning to realize I’m just making myself lonelier. I must be seeing things all wrong, right? To have the knowledge and ability to help those I love in their time of need is a gift, not a curse… It wasn’t intended to make me feel alone so why am I torturing myself with this feeling? Do you feel the same way? I should learn how to express my needs to those I love because certainly they wouldn’t take and take without giving if they understood how I feel, right? Hmmmm, life is such a mystery at times… Today’s lesson… Don’t hide your gifts because of how it makes you feel. There is bigger out there… And that, my friends, is what keeps me going. The knowledge that there is something bigger than me out there… Love ya’ll and keep rockin’
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Yesterday was a successful day! I am above ground and although I feel exhausted, I know I am one day closer to experiencing my dream of singing. You see, when I was growing up, I sang all the time and hoped one day, I would become a singer. I never cared what type of singer- but I always leaned toward the sexy woman with the long red dress smoking a cigarette with a long filter laying on top of the piano in a smoky night club…. Now, I don’t know if that is the direction my career will head, but whichever direction its leading in, I am happy to go!!! Lord only knows, without Him, I wouldn’t have made it thus far. I am blessed and I am loved. Hitting the grind again tomorrow! I finally recorded my demo and so far so good!!!
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Something Bigger Out There...
Life is such a mystery at times…I often wonder what keeps me going…After so many trials and tribulations, why haven’t I just thrown in the towel and said, “Screw it!!”? You know, I’m still seeking the answer to that question. I talk to my mother and grandmother about the mysteries of life on a regular basis. They tell me I was put on this earth for a reason and I know that has to be true, but on days like today… I wonder what it is that keeps me going. Over the years, I’ve found myself to be the person people come to for the answers, for help, for advice…the funny thing is, I’m still seeking my own answers. Where do I go? Who do I call? Initially, I felt honored and happy that people came to me…my friends, my family, my kids… But now, I feel sad and alone. I cordon myself off in this dark place to keep from feeling used but I am beginning to realize I’m just making myself lonelier. I must be seeing things all wrong, right? To have the knowledge and ability to help those I love in their time of need is a gift, not a curse… It wasn’t intended to make me feel alone so why am I torturing myself with this feeling? Do you feel the same way? I should learn how to express my needs to those I love because certainly they wouldn’t take and take without giving if they understood how I feel, right? Hmmmm, life is such a mystery at times… Today’s lesson… Don’t hide your gifts because of how it makes you feel. There is bigger out there… And that, my friends, is what keeps me going. The knowledge that there is something bigger than me out there… Love ya’ll and keep rockin’
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Living my dream
Yesterday was a successful day! I am above ground and although I feel exhausted, I know I am one day closer to experiencing my dream of singing. You see, when I was growing up, I sang all the time and hoped one day, I would become a singer. I never cared what type of singer- but I always leaned toward the sexy woman with the long red dress smoking a cigarette with a long filter laying on top of the piano in a smoky night club…. Now, I don’t know if that is the direction my career will head, but whichever direction its leading in, I am happy to go!!! Lord only knows, without Him, I wouldn’t have made it thus far. I am blessed and I am loved. Hitting the grind again tomorrow! I finally recorded my demo and so far so good!!!
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