Mirrors

Age creeps up I don't know but she snuck up on me like a picture on Facebook that says, "Wow! What's she doing on a Harley and is that her stomach sticking out?" As I ironically look at the mirror while shopping in Soho and realize I have a 42 year old gut myself and I'm not even 42. . . yet When did we hit middle age? As it seems I was perpetually 30 forever as I now look at grown up things. . . and is there more pleasure in seeing someone change for the worse or the better? Are we sincere when we say to a friend we haven't seen in a while, Wow Man, You look so Good!! You look so much taller and so healthy! What have you been eating? I heard you've been doing that PS80 thingy? Boy and look at your teeth their so pearly white and is that a tan?! Your doing yoga too! Jeez, that's terrific! (Inner voice; "I hate yoga. Who has the patience for that and on the beach of all places!!") Are we sincere when we say to a friend that we haven't seen in a while, 15lbs? You lost 15lbs?! That's great. . . (Inner voice; "Shit Motherfucker, Could you make me feel any worse about having a another banner year and yet reminding me about how I've been avoiding taking care of myself eating unhealthy and basically letting myself go the last couple months. . .Okay for the last half year!) Well yeah it was great seeing you too!! Bye, and best to your family as well. . . See God made us the only species that can laugh at others but at the same time, Oh how we hate to look in the mirror. Because it seems no matter how agape we try to be with our sincerest compliments on others accomplishments or good fortune there's always a tinge of envy in wanting what someone else has even while they may desire something different that we have that they don't.

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