im very gratefull for the life God has blessed me with. although it is extreamly difficult and sometimes feels unbearable...He continues to grant me the strength to press on. i only hope that when it is all said and done i have made Him proud. i have given up on tryin to please people. no matter what i do they are never happy. living for that purpose left me empty and hating myself for failing to please those i cared for. Now it is about me and my Father. if he is smiling, so am I. and thats all the joy i need.