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Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” John 8:12 NKJV
When I was thirteen, my dad took me to a Christian Youth Service. I met a bunch of people my age, and it was pretty cool. At the end of the night they had an alter call, and on that night I gave my life to God!!! Or did I really? I found out very quickly that it wasn't "cool" to live, and serve God. My friends wouldn't accept that, and soon I didn't either. I was young, and I had my whole life ahead of me. I wanted to see what the world had to offer. I started getting involved with drugs, girls, and was constantly depressed. Very depressed. I had numerous thoughts of suicide, and was always looking for the easy way out. I started venting all my anger, and confusion through music. Hip-Hop was always something I loved, and it was a place I could escape to, but as a teen I was easily influenced by the "Thug Life", and was intrigued by the whole gangster mentality. My music took on that image as well. I was constantly degrading women, talking about killing, getting high, and based my lifestyle on materialistic things. I was so lost. I had felt convicted about my lifestyle for years, but nothing changed. I met my wife, and was trying to live the "right" way, but was confused because I was still making secular music. Until the birth of our son. I really wanted to be a positve figure to him, and to my wife, but was confused because that's not what my music was reflecting. I was on the verge of releasing a secular project I was working on, and was trying to find a balance. At this time I was so convicted with everything I was doing. I was in tears constantly. I tried to fight it off, but it was very clear what God wanted me to do! I stopped everything that I was working on, and listened. For the first time ever! I knew I was blessed with a gift to rhyme, and make music, and it had been wasting away for years. I knew at that moment that it was time to use my music, and all my talents to glorify HIM! God has opened so many doors for me. My eyes are set on God, and I'm never turning back!



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