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Chan D / Blog

Embroidery

I’ve recently took up embroidery..enjoying it it’s quiet but productive..not in the right place to do music right at the moment but will get back to it at some point ..

Been up all night!

For better or worse I’m married to the music till I’m carried away in a hearse..it’s carried me through hardships you’ll never understand ..so yeah take the upper hand and keep switching your mood and feelings like you do I’m through with that bullshit now it’s true..fuck being subliminal..I’ll murder you all and you can take that literal fool

Not a song or poem just a short entry on how things are

I used to be able to do music for very long stints but now cannot as I’ve been diagnosed with ME..but the one thing it’s taught me is I won’t be rushing a song in future and can be more creative in actual fact also made me take the time out to look up some vocal coaching on YouTube as I’m not ever one hundred percentage happy with my vocals..I’ve never had vocal coaching so it is what it is..but can always improve myself

You're a star

This is a song I wrote for my nan..she passed away several years ago now but I've recorded it on the iPad vocals too but can't share it on here yet..but here's the words

Hooks

And you've travelled far now I don't know how but you're a star

Verse one

When the sun shines so brightly I know where you are Youre not far from us I can see when you look at me ...

Hooks

That you've travelled far now I don't know how but you're a star

Verse two

When the moon glows in the night I know you're by our side When the rivers flow so freely I can see you standing by me

Hooks

And you've travelled far now I don't know how but you're a star

Verse three

There's a bluebird on the horizon Early morn the sun is rising Dreams of a blue sky with a rainbow You're way up high in the clouds you're safe though

Hooks

And you've travelled far now I don't know how but you're a star

Verse four

When the Angels fall around you I know where you are When the stars collide in the sky I know where but don't know why

Hooks

And you've travelled far now I don't know how but you're a star

Hook

You're a star

Instrumental fade..

Freestyle continued 2

I'm bringjng knowledge but to be honest half of what you say makes no sense. But I promise that I'll be loyal and true. What else can I do? What do I have to do to prove it? Make more music? I feel like I'm forgiving sins that I ain't committing what's the deal? I don't understand none of this was planned. What am I suppose to say different to the next one standing next to me? It's sometimes hard to be creative there's no debating though I'm a composer I don't write on stave though I record it no mission abort bitch. I'll leave the chord in diminish that's how I'll finish.

Freestyle continued

There's no let up yo.you bitch and moan while my moods switch non stop like the guns that pop. There ain't no stopping me I'm a hungry emcee like a younger me. I've always rhymed not rapped that shit is tapped now a days in many ways. This flow is usual brain dead like this was my funeral, grow a head and blow a bugle you bitches get me sounding off like a military one it's very something or other I'm not sure but I'm sick of fighting a war while you all battle, I'll rattle all your cages. I'm gunna make raps that will last throughout the ages it's like Jesus coming back it's a thesis of rap. I do this while taking a crap! That's the way to go yo I'm just having a laugh probably need a bath but rhymes are natural like I was Jesus sandal slapping you in the face rapping putting you in your place, that's how I hit the Aces I leave no spaces. I'm worse than Jason I'm building something good like I was a mason but you're too blind to see it blatant. Times are trying but I'm dying to know why do people wanna know what I look like? Do they wanna fuck me or something? I'd rather have my hand at best so give it a rest about sex that's all I hear about money, drugs, riches, hats and fame but it ain't everyone's life. Each to their own own it when you get on the mic like big pun it's fun to do music. We do this like date rapists face it you ain't bringjng the same skills as me to the table which I'm able to twist and turn easily even if it sounds corny or cheesy. I don't need to swallow a dictionary to rap that's fact. Spit it easier so dumb bitches can understand I'm numb with the sickness, bitch I'm dickless, ain't you noticed I'm a chick yet? Your dicks probably wet I'd say let me inspect but you'd probably let me! You won't forget me never I'm in this bitch forever. I ain't gunna stop until I'm dead and even then I'm gunna come back and haunt the beat like a true ghost. My spirit is in this bitch I hope you dig it. This is how i get men and women wanting to screw me but I threw me off of a building I've concealed enough shit to last me a lifetime. Pass me the mic for the rest of my life I'm gunna ride it like you want me to ride your dick is that all you think about?! I'm getting dirty you're getting shirty I'm way past thirty still killing the mic like this. I act like a kid most of the time, I ain't got kids if I was a mother it would be very different but I ain't why the hate? I'm different always have been I used to smoke green but now I'm sort of clean it's a touchy subject but much less I still don't give a fuck I'm mad enough to walk in a room full of guns with no bullet proof vest on, next song I'm demented this rhymes cemented this is elementary like KRS1 I know my hiphop you're flip flop I'm tip top like cream like wutang you can kiss my ass too like the rest. I'm done with this test.im not trying to be lyrical so get with the spiritual some of its literal some of it ain't you should know when I'm joking or provoking. This flows so hot it's smoking like the smoke off the barrels of your guns. Is Harold your son? I'm just joking that rhymed that's all that's it no hidden agenda spitting like a fender guitar was on the track. You're smacked up like women's refuge but they refuse to talk about violence against men but I won't that ain't dope neither either way I'm having my say. I'll talk about it no doubt. Men get raped in the pen it mostly happens against men that's obvious. Why do they only talk about it against women? I don't understand it are they afraid of the graphic well I ain't having it I'll say it how it is and shit most people get raped in this buiz so talking about rape lets get it damn straight. It gets personal when you don't know the other person at all flapping your jaws while I'm down for the cause. Got my flaws but I know what I'm talking. I got my own mind which they don't like. But it's gunna be like that from beginning end spent enough time quiet. My flows cause riots. Lights out goodnight. I'm bringjng

Freestyle

People tell me that I'm a female version of shady, been shady since birth baby, no maybe. I ain't slim though! No diss, I kiss you in the kisser. I ain't calling out names I'm just saying it how it is. I wish people would mind their own buiz. Let me rock, most hos suck a lot of cock to get in the buiz. But not me shit, I say what I think and what I feel that's about it. There's nothing more to it that's the deal. I'm raw like jaws was after your ass so clamp your jaws bitch! I've got an itch and it's on my genitals. I flow like a general like a veteran I know better men I ain't a man hater I ain't no feminist either never the less I'll perform a surgical procedure on your brain while eating your brains. Insane in the membrane like cypress hill fighters will stand up hands up its freedom of speech across the whole board not just selective. I ain't no detective neither so quit trying to figure me out while I can't already! I flow steady like a truck don't give a fuck. It's not meaner or persona I'll do this while drinking a corona while on prescription meds I'm out of my head been up all night writing your biting your nails and starting to fidget I'm farting on a midget sniffing it and calling her Bridget rebbit rebbit your face turns green with envy like kermit the frog. I'm a hermit dog that's the truth I'm in a cage being inspected. I've got a new recipe flow heavy like a Levi don't need a machete to slash you bitches up with. I'll stab you with a fucking mop handle, I've had about as much as I can handle burning the candle at both ends being stuck in the ends giving a fuck less I ain't impressed , but bitch I ain't gunna wear a dress. I'm cocky I'll admit it shit if I was a bloke I'd probably get punched for my rudeness but people love it when you bring the crudeness see I ain't useless and one thing I ain't is truth less I'll bring it to you rawer than the poor feeding the poorer. Still got the rage on a page I had since age two. It's never gunna change not till my dying day. What I'm trying to say is, I can't remember, dismember your limbs and stick em in a bin. Ahh that's sick, don't give a fuck bitch I'm only rhyming it's dope and it sounds exciting. Mounds of shit is piling on me to see if I got style or if I can emcee. But bitch I got many a style I ain't like you I can rock to almost any tune. Don't Mean to be rude! Oh yes yes I do ! Infact I can get cruder I always lower the tone wherever I go, I flow like I'm freddy Kruger on the mic yeah that's right so keep flowing tight like a nuns vagina! Ain't had sex in ten years walking around in a habit with many a bad habit, pun meant! So tell me how I'm a ho yo? I'd really love to know clearly you're a no show I know you wanna blow me that ain't on the low. But I don't give a fuck I say it freely daily no failing even amid all the hailing and storms which I'm the eye warned. I'm nice until I'm pushed a bit too far sometimes my rhymes go a bit too far like I was driving a car drunk, hey bitch what's up?! It's nice to know you see you laters fuck all the haters. I'm done debating I'm masterbating I mean mass debating!? I play on words all the time this is how I rhyme. I'm perfecting the time deflecting your mime reflecting like chimes feeling the grime, it all gets shitty it's a pit most don't understand I'll take the upper hand it's about time killing bullies in my sleep it's really that deep. I ain't no sheep some speak tongue in cheek but I speak the truth in or out the booth! No,lies I'm speaking all of me which you probably despise but meet your demise and your maker I ain't no faker. I hate people in general ain't no singling out i ain't mingling now. Talk about riches been from rags to riches from riches to rags life's s drag tell me what I have to do to make a dyke my slag! Though I'm bi bitch so bye bye! You can try and tell my truth for me but it will only backfire matter of fact Michael Myers is back to strangle your ass while you're on the telephone there's no l

Freestyle

I need someone to take me seriously. Deliriously in love with the music I use it like a junkie shoots up. I'm the monkey that hears all evil, sees it and speaks it. Evil is live backwards I ain't no actor. My hearts heavy like a trucker it's like lead this pencil will stab you dead in the head. I'm manic like manic street preachers I'll teach you a lesson.mi eat away at you like a cannibal making Hannibal lector look soft, what's wrong ? Something I said? Dead spirits come to me at night when I write, if only you knew the half of it as I spit but shit I can't name names that's just out of respect which I'm breaking my neck for. What do you know about me to doubt me? Fuck you all that doubt me I'm an emcee no doubt about it. Who needs to prove shit? Not to nobody except myself, none of you bitches. Most of you are snitches calling me the snitch that's rich! So talk about rich I'll say it bluntly you hate me muchly at least I stand for something you have nothing.i didn't do well in school neither except English and music. Prove it? Ask them for my grades I ain't got nothing to hide. Changed schools about five times in total but I've moved 53 times in my life so talk about fucking stress. Now I'm grounded staying put like manny was a second home to my own which is Cornwall it ain't normal I didn't grow up on rap only the music which I played every day mostly my own. Still I have the right to use music as an outlet like any artist, why not? What's wrong? I don't give a fuck about a Grammy or awards neither have me loyalty any day of the week over any of it. Many spit but they have crews yet I don't need one to do what I do to the best of my ability. Pass any test its in me. Fit in? Never have scared I'll become like my dad something that's bad. I don't want that neither do you in all truth. Who needs a booth to spit? I don't and I ain't gunna choke. Musics my theropy my escape we take no more bullshit at all. Bitch I ain't gunna fall. I'm a midget but when I flow I stand tall like a giant. Defiant with my ego. Most of you be ego tripping I'm tripping up over my halo. We can all talk to the devil on the level. But the streets is deeper than that it ain't all about guns, drugs, thugs and gangsters. Where's the love gone? I wanna know as I flow what the fucks up yo? I just don't get it no bitch I won't forget it. This shit is not generic it comes from inside it's very good the feeling you get when you're being real and people are feeling your shit. Been on stage not in front of as many but still steady move a crowd like tupac was still alive running from the cops I'm not gunna stop you must be smoking too much crack or something. I'm losing the plot getting crazier and shadier by the minute. I'm raps saviour Jesus Christ I'm in it! So pull out your glocks and blow me there's no help for me but you don't own me and I don't owe you shit so suck on a dick bitch.

Freestyle

I need some inspiration it's the nation that's got me rocking blatant. I'm an artist too mark this tune with a kiss I'm weird like that. It's like I'm married and it's my husband I don't give a fuck less what people think of me anymore. I've heard it all before I'm bored. The hate is their insecurities this isn't new to me. This is my normal. I call it jealousy and envy the only enemy is myself which is the worst. I fast or slow like a hearse. Showing bitches their wreath as I speak I can be a little nasty still classy. I ain't no monochism I'm a Bono on a mission. That line rhymed but I didn't mean it still make you feel it as I keep reeling stuff off of the dome. I'll keep you second guessing you reckon you can figure me out? I can't even so how the fuck can you? I'm dying for you that's the truth. I'm the proof of the pudding wearing no hoody, no goodie two shoes. Like kool G rap I'm bringjng the ill street blues. Singing like this was the news, this is ill like hitter gassing the Jews. Mask? I don't need one I look scary enough. Wary of all of you bitches, leave you to put yourselves in ditches. Nothing wrong with wanting the riches and success, press rewind I think you'll find I'm a loner don't get a boner. I'm just spitting on the real so the whole world can feel that's the deal.

Freestyle

My hearts sore like the poor getting poorer. Greedy ganits all over the planet. I've had it up to here with half the shit that gets said. Where is the heart? It seems dead. Like people forget where they came from. It's the same old song and dance . What's wrong? I was having a laugh but the mood changed quickly. Don't ever take the piss out of my heart. I'll diss and it'll be personal. I don't just diss for no reason. Most of you bitches ain't worth my piss in this season. Hurting give me the trigger I need a good reason to be squeezing. Don't you dare tell me what I can and can't say. I'll say what I will and I will kill this mic like it was my life on the line. Get it? I dig this shit to the core. I'm raw like leeches sucking your blood slowly. I'll preach too, only if I here another word about brexit I'm gunna exit I don't wanna be involved a new rhyme has evolved, be told I am bold and brave enough to speak my own heart for starters I'll leave you bitches swinging from the rafters. I ain't no joke. Leave you in smoke like the up in smoke tour. My brains sore like the wars that are going on in other countries where you couldn't imagine the hell they're in. We all in hell bitch. Hells on earth it's absurd how some people try to word it. I see dead people when I look into their eyes walking around,it's awful it ain't fucking normal. What's happening to people? We should be equals but it always has to be about competition but I Gotta new vision and a dream like Martin Luther King , I out my mind heart and spirit into this music when I compose it write and sing as well as my life. What more do you want from me?