I have not posted anything new in a long time. You would think I didn't have a life or something, oh contrare. That is why I never write these things, I have other things to do and if I wasted your time reading this , sorry. There I feel better now. I am still alive and playing and I have some very good friends.
I am a very lucky person, not only have I made countless friends on-line from my various music sites, played my first gig this past summer and will be releasing my 3rd CD this fall, but now I am being featured on 2 internet radio stations. Jango and U.G. radio. I never in my wildest dreams ever thought I would get this far after having 2 strokes and having to learn how to play all over again. I am one of the luckiest people in the world and I wake up looking forward to every day. Never give up on your dreams, ever. Live life to the fullest and smile a lot and do something good for someone everyday. Thank you all.
Last night for the first time I got up on stage and did what I've wanted to do all my life, and that is to perform my music in front of a crowd. I was scared to death and it was a little shaky at the start but then it went good. To hear the crowd clapping after doing a song was the biggest rush I have ever felt, they even sang along on one song I did. I now, for the first time know how it feels to be "up there" and it was great. I wish you all could have been there to share the moment. I was hoping that the first venue I played would have been a coffee house or small bar, but no I did a stadium, talk about jumping into the deep end. I can't thank you enough for giving me the courage to do it.
Listen to my song of recovery called "They tell Me"
I have just released my first CD of all original songs. There are also T-shirts that I designed available and ringtones, how cool is that? ringtones, who would have thunk it? Please check them out and maybe even buy something. My fans have made this all possible for without their encouregment none of this would have happened, so thank you all. Just go to...
Well it's not too terribly interesting but it needs to be told. Back in 1991, I was dating my current wife, we were not yet married and we were still living in Minnesota, but would be married soon. Anyway her mother is a poet and we were at her farm in Northfield Minn. one day and I was reading her poetry, I came across this poem and as I was reading it I could hear the music in my head that went with it. I asked for a copy of the poem and went home and started working on it. I wanted to put it to music and have it done for her 65th birthday, I thought it would make a nice present, now keep in mind my wife had a 12 year old daughter that blabbed everything but I asked her to keep it a secret til her birthday and sure enough she did keep the secret. So on her 65th birthday we went to the farm for her big party and everyone was outside in the pole barn partying. So I asked her to come into the house so I could show her something and there in the house was her two daughters, granddaughter and myself. She didn't know what was going on then I started to play, the room was dead silent and as I played the tears started rolling down her cheeks and then everyone was in tears, it was the hardest song to get through I have ever played. She told me that was her favorite poem since it was about her dad. She has loved me ever since.
Simple really, you see ever since I was a kid I wanted to be that guitar player up on stage and people really liking what he was doing. For one reason or another that never happened, I guess if I knew know what I didn't know then I would have practiced more and made more of a commitment, but I grew up in the 70's and well getting stoned was my top priority. I was not thinking long term at all, nor were most of my friends. But I did play, although not that great I played enough to entertain myself but not others. Sure I would get together with friends once in a while and play but I was always amazed at how much better they were, Duh, they practiced more. So I would try to learn more stuff but then would get sidetracked on some other thing that came along, no commitment, I was a dumbass plain and simple.
So then a few years ago I have this stroke and I couldn't play at all, let alone walk or talk or feed myself. I could have cared less if I ever got out of that wheelchair, my main focus was to play my guitar again. You see even though I wasn't all that great at playing it was still a passion for me and to have that taken away was horrible. So after my stroke, for about 3 months all I could do is hold my guitar and cry, it hurt not to be able to play, so I tried and tried and slowly things started to improve. I could make chords, I could strum a bit and I even got some of my finger-pickin back. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and I am fortunate to be able to play again.
Then last summer, just when I thought it was over I was diagnosed with cancer and well it scared the shit out of me. I thought ah shit here we go again. So I have been practicing more now than ever before and I bought a Boss Micro BR to record as much as I can. You see even though I never became that guitar player up on that stage I wanted to leave some sort of musical legacy and now I have that chance. I have put my songs on CD's for my friends and family and I don't care if they don't sound perfect, anytime I played I didn't sound perfect so why should I now. I just want them to hear me sing and play.
Now thanks to UG and Reverbnation I am reaching people I thought I could never reach, so in some way I have been able to take that stage in front of all of you, and so far you have liked most of my music. I can't tell you how grateful I am for that, it really means a lot to me. So thank you all.
If I learned anything from all the shit I have had to go through it is not to take anything for granted and enjoy each and every day.