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Letting go of yesteryear

There will come a time when you will have to remove certain individuals from your personal space in order to press forward. I use to surround myself with folks who held no meaning to my life purpose. When the blinders come off and you realize that you've wasted most of your precious time on someone who never wanted to see you accomplish much or have no goals of their own, it really makes you see human nature for what it truly is. They would much rather prefer you be at the bottom of the barrel where they so comfortably like to dwell,feeding your mind with trivial gossip and being this overall plague to your life. I am so glad that i was able to walk away from those who were selfish,bitter ugly on the inside & outside wishing everyone around them turmoil due to their own insecurities. My only regret was accepting them as "friends" in the first place,but i suppose it was the only way i could have learned from my mistakes. My tomorrow was full of laughter and I could breathe again. My future kept getting brighter and I began surrounding myself with people who wanted to see me actually win ,and the garbage that came with it.

I am the reason

My life heads into a direction i have guided thus far. I am the reason i am in the here and now chasing my goals and pursuing my dreams.

The sun still rises tomorrow

Keep going....You're ALMOST there :) -Savvyn Gavea

Everyday Peopleg

Not everyone is out to get you but you must sort out the bad seeds from the good ones. Never force your friendship on someone who does not deserve it or respect it! In the end,it will be you and only you who suffers the consequence of trusting before analyzing that which you believed to be a genuine "human being".. Disappointment has no partiality neither does manipulation!!

Lessons when living

People will always find a way to bring down your spirits,but if you can identify with the serpent and convince the serpent he has won the fight;then you as an individual have just conquered the opposing side without him even being aware of it. If you have come here to live,learn and love knowing that there will be bumps in the road from time to time,continue moving forward never to look back because you need your armor and you need your soul,and you never know when you may have to charm a snake again... Follow the light!

Thinking of you today

Precious people all over the world i bring you love & light today,reminding you that there is no time like the present. Your hopes,dreams and aspirations are all depending on you,so embrace what the universe has in store for you,for that which has been set aside for you can be given to no one else. Destiny is not a matter of chance,destiny is a matter of choice! Let your light shine beyond the stars that reside in the cosmos and know that someone is rooting for you:) Fondly,Savvyn Gavea

Happy Holidays

Many blessings to all those celebrating the holidays as well as those keeping their head above water surviving yet another day I wish you light and love.

My Love Is Your Love

~I am not obligated to you,but yet i have chosen to show you my heart.~

Do not neglect my love,Let us find ourselves in one another perhaps this lifetime,as well as the next we will continue to embrace our spirits,leaving all else behind to embark on this journey of forever.~

Your soul immediately identified itself in I and I in your soul,through these windows we have come to understand that beyond the flesh lies everlasting peace and happiness.

Hand to hand,lips to chin,nose to nose i will never ever leave you,and if death should ever find itself at your doorstep i shall ask death to take me with you,so that our ashes are scattered alongside the stream of eternity’s river~

-Savvyn Gavea http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Blq3YhOYSHM

Roaming through darkness

Roaming through darkness.. Roaming with pain.. Roaming with nothing to lose nor to gain..

WHY does this happen? Have you been here? Left all alone in the world with your tears......I....

I am 15 and i have no place to go. I have been on the streets for three weeks now,and mother hasn't bothered to look for me. I ENVY COCAINE! Why does he get to spend the most time with her? Last night as i was walking down an alleyway a man in his mid 20's grabbed me into his garage and began to rape me in the backseat of his car. I'm bleeding but,since this has happened to me before i know the bleeding will eventually stop. Where will i sleep tonight. I met a prostitute named hope who promised she'd meet me on the corner of 5th and pain blvd but she was a no show. I heard through the grapevine the police had arrested her for soliciting three blocks away from hustle drive so tonight i'll seek shelter in the park where bullets dance and feans dive.. I haven't eaten in two days,i think that was thursday since today is saturday. A woman named faith gave me a bag of chips and a corn dog,i love corn dogs i wonder if my father loved them also. I wish my daddy was still alive,but his friend who use to provide him with his favorite drug took his life. "people say we look alike you know",,Mother said she is glad he's dead,and that it would best suit me if i'd soon join him! My baby brothers should be safe tonight since she isn't dating anyone at the moment "or so i hope".. Please god. If..I am worthy enough to be heard..If i should die this evening do you think you could give them a message for me? {Let them know that nothing is what it seems,and tell them i've prayed for them ever since we've parted. I won't shed anymore tears because mother says tears are surely a sign of weakness. I don't have much of an appetite as i do for a nice warm comfy bed..Oh well..Such is life.

I have been throwing up for weeks now..Yuck! Must have been something i had down at the ymca. Terry the nurse says that there is a strong possibility i could be pregnant { oh dear i hope not } Mother has many boyfriends,but this last one kept making me do things i was uncomfortable with. He'd always say "be quiet whore and take what i know you want bitch"..He says mother's body isn't in her prime anymore and that i am ripe for his cock. I'm kind of glad i left,because i couldn't tolerate another day being teased at school for my poor attire and bad hairstyles it's just that mother spends our welfare check on herself so usually we're left with very little. Oh well...Such is life! I've chosen not to stay in the park tonight i'll just hide atop of the korean laundry mat rooftop, over on tarnished street it's safe up there, i have slept there twice before with no problems other than a little raining. Well now that i've thought about it,it doesn't seem so bad. I know mother truly loves me and i do more than anything want to see her happy.."she always says,you sorry bastards what about me? what about me? my life is fucked up because of you pieces of shit" and she may be right.. So tonight .. I'll just ..JUMP!!!!

Goodbye cruel world. Good-Bye

Written By: Savvyn Gavea

09.21.12 Copyright 2012 Ehosaraem Media Haus

~Savvyns Corner~

We the occupants of this planet are mere tenants. So that begs the question,who is the actual landlord? {Hmmm food for thought}