Change The Story Turn the page..how does it feel to lose your world all over again? The pain's too much to bare, doesn't make a difference if you do or don't share.. The care and bonds driven in deep..hardly any or too much sleep, time flies and it creeps The day is all wrong over again, the songs not enough again to peak top, You're on your own, travelling down a one man road, it's a one man show..where do you go? Every bad news you find out coldly, you try to handle your feelings boldly.. He'd hold me for a brief moment..then I'd lose another world again, with no closure.. scars run deep trying to hide emotions I want to change the story turn over the page but every time i try im at the same stage I need to change the story but words fail for the glory Real life's gory it's still the same story Turn the page again, you think you're at the end..How does it feel to lose a lover and a friend? They say lifes the end for your one and only parent..that death could just hit them and happen at any moment..you feel prepared..you're all aware..there's nothing else in your world at that time that holds significant care..you share more loss from sudden shock, one minute you don't give a crock of s**t, till the news h*ts you like lightening, you can feel every muscle in your body tightening. You bawl your eyes out and crawl back under your rock..the thunder struck one time too many, down on your luck and down to your last penny..the every day little things knock you off balance, you try to be a soldier with valance, but can't seem to keep up the stance, its like you know the whole story, punchlines in advance.. I want to change the story Turn over the page but every time i try I'm at the same stage I need to change the story but words fail for the glory Real life's gory It's still the same story
Music By DJ Dolesum (featuring myself singing words and melody off the cuff) more reverb etc couldn't be added at the time as it was just roughly done years ago in an old room etc
Times Were Hard You know it took all we got. And all you said Baby we made our bed. Kept in the dark No more secrets from your heart. We never tried, to understand the reasons why. The night on rest, I walk around this empty place. Locked in a mist, left In the memory of your face. Did you ever really think about me, darling? Did you ever really think about me?
I always say I'm gunna stop doing whatever but never really do! Lol!
Dangers everywhere that you look, you could get up out your chair bang your head on the wall then you're dead. You can get out of bed, slip 'n' trip on your trouser leg, fall, hit your head, break your neck. The next bits sick when you check the statistics, realistic. It's fucking dire. More people die from household fires and hanging round me long enough is only likely to make both rise a whole lot higher! My goals to remember not to touch live wires with wet hands in mid December..wait,,or is that any time? Shit, I can't remember! So if you wanna be my friend it's likely to be short lived to a quick end! I spend most of time trying to remind me not to dumb shit, no doubt ! But now that my secrets out, living with me in a house is likely to get leeches and fleas eating you from the inside out! The way I'm living life do you really want to be asking my advice on health and safety?! (Lol)
Who Needs a Mic? Rhymes Eternal.
Whose got a mind as sick as this in the first place?! Forget murder in the first! That’s hardly a first and unheard of! But anyway, let’s get back on course and a bit more creative, Sick of hearing the same bullshit debating: “ look at me…look at me..i’m a buster!!! Fuck no bitch you ain’t you’re just a ..bare faced liar, I wouldn’t trust ya!!!!! Course I’d freely bust a tune, leaving no room for errors in ills, terror is thrills, I already done spilled my guts, yuck, not the stomach, the intestines, Fuck, you wanna investigate my mind?!? Well shit, they’d fill a whole Football field up, in no time at all to strangle you sluts! No time to yield, your fates are sealed now that shit just revealed is much sicker, than a Sword and a Shield! But of course I could just as quick, rip out my spinal cord for another way to kill. Sorry Bill, did I strike a nerve or a chord?! Get it?! It’s just another method , my minds that gone, thats why I forget it! I'm too fucking crazy..Shit! Even Slim Shady wouldn't come near me baby! For fuck sake! Could you please stop speaking of rape?! Cos I’m already done with abducting your dates, silencing their screams with duct tape at a rate!! Of course I have violent dreams all of the time, its nothing, my minds sick as hell! Proud of it, I speak real bitch, I ain’t bluffing. I’m snuffing out MC’S without so much as touching a MIC Like MC Hammer, you just can't touch this. Whacking you judges with a lump hammer, telling you to use real grammar, while using my words poorly on purpose! But I’m an MC, what’s your excuse Luke?! Being ill's supposed to be the purpose on purpose..apparently!? Why are you so mad at me?! I’m just spilling my mind too, might as well, as I’ve spilt the rest of me already. You'd better be staying behind your windows or get back in your graves, yeah keep twitching your curtains while I admit to the crimes that I might just well commit, way before and ahead of time! Like I was a prospective wife of Ted Bundy’s. So let's get with the times..lets go back in time!!!---Fuck you bitches in the head with a screwdriver.."thanks very muchly!!!" I don’t feel the shit that you say, it just don’t touch me! I don’t give a fuck if you like this or not, this songs for my excitement, and it might just cause an Indicment charge, for why?! I don’t know, I’m just speaking my mind, while it plays large from the hood; Which is all that’s “all good” at this time right now! How am I gunna pick you up if you fall?! For a start as you quite rightly told me before 'I’m too damn small!' Plus, I’m likely to fall over laughing. You learn to cope with humour when life’s just tragic. Shit, ain’t no witch, but I gotta admit whatever I spits magic, hexing MC’s while they’re bragging, bagging their gravity, while they’re gabbing! Who needs to be grabbing the MIC?! I didn’t have one, for most of my life! That’s right, a true MC, comes from the inside, Always on fire, burn all. Inferno, that’s an ever lasting fire internal. Which means,rhymes will always be there, a true MC's around forever, eternal. I didn’t learn all this , it’s always been in the heart of me, since I was a kid.
LOVE IS BLIND, BUT STILL THE BLINDS LEADING THE BLIND FEELING UNDER THE WEATHER ALL OF THE TIME, HOW OFTENS LOVE REALLY FOREVER, I WONDER WHY, NOW AND FOREVER, AND UNTIL THE END OF TIME, WHY WOULDN’T YOU BE MINE? I GUESS ITS FINE, WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY AT THE END OF EACH DAY, I JUST HOPE AND PRAY THAT YOU GET THIS MESSAGE DIRECT FROM MY HEART TO YOURS THEN YOU’LL KNOW I’VE BEEN FIGHTING, FEELING YOUR WARS, AND OF COURSE I’LL NEVER FORGET A SINGLE WORD WE SAID, EACH AND EVERY ONE THAT I REALLY MEANT THAT YOU BELIEVED I DIDN’T, I JUST WANTED YOU TO BE FREE, SO YOU CAN BE ALL YOU CAN BE, WITHOUT ME HOLDING YOU BACK, OR YOU HAVING TO SEE THE WAY THAT I AM, YOU’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND.
PRECHORUS HOOK- OH WON’T YOU
STAY WITH ME, COME WITH ME WE GOTTA TAKE IT AWAY NOW WON’T YOU STAY ME WITH ME, COME WITH ME WE GOTTA TAKE IT AWAY NOW ONLY YOU CAN TAKE AWAY THIS PAIN INSIDE THAT I FEEL RIGHT NOW. CAN’T YOU SEE THAT I WON’T LET YOU GO NOW?
A song I wrote when I was 18.
This Is Love (It Hurts) (Big Band Style)
Intro (over chorus chords)
Verse One (sax ad libs over verse)
I don't mind; but it hurts anyway and I want you to stay. Oh I, can't get you out of my mind..oooo... Someone said, you feel it too, please I hope that you do. No I, don't mind, but it hurts...ohhh
And If I look into your eyes, for one more second well.. I'll know... this is love.(sax ad lib) And if I kiss that kiss, I've waited for a lifetime well.. I'll know..this is love. (sax ad lib)
Verse Two (saxophone ad libs over verse)
I don't mind, but it hurts anyway, feel that you feel the same. That's why..you're running scared.. right out of sight...ooooh...(sax ad lib) Cannot stand, the thought of you with another one.. Oh yeah, there I mind, and it hurts...Oooh...(sax ad lib)
And If I look into your eyes, for one more second well... I'll know...this is love... And If I kiss that kiss, I've waited for a lifetime well... I'll know ...this is love...
(Saxophone solo-over verse chords)
If I look into your eyes, for one more second well... I'll know...this is love... And If I kiss that kiss, I've waited for a lifetime well... I'll know...this is Well I'll know this is a .. Well I'll know this is a love..........
Outro (over verse chords)
Saxophone solo (ending on same phrases as vox)
This is a love.... Oh yeah...... And it hurts.... You know.... This is love... Oh yeah..... And it hurts....(repeat and fade)
Intro (chorus chords)
I've tried so hard; to make you see, that you're the only one for me. And even when, life gets too tough, you know that I'll always be there.
I've tried to fight it, but it won't go away. I've tried to hide it, but it still remains. I've tried to forget it, but baby don't you know...that..
You can't hide away from love. Even if we try..and even when we die.. You can't run away from love.... cos even if you want to.. there will always be love........
And I could never live my life, without you, right by my side. We should be together... cos my loves forever, my loves forever. .
(piano solo over chorus chords)
When I look...into your eyes... I know we're meant to be... I know it's hard, to depend on someone. You can always depend on me.
I've tried to fight it, but it won't go away. I've tried to hide it; but it still remains. I've tried to forget it; but baby don't you know...that
You can't hide away from love.. even if we try..and even when we die. And you can't run away from love. Cos even if you want to... there will always be love Chorus
And you can't hide away from love.. even if we try...even when we die. And you can't run away from love. Cos even if you want to. There will always be.........love....(end) (deaccellarando)
This is a song that I wrote when I was 17; I never knew at the time why I wrote it...but I've come to realize now after all these years why...hopefully I can get better to record the vocals to it; for now I've done the lyrics here and I will work on recording the Music parts again.
Nothing Else In This World Left To Lose
Can't you see, I'm just a shadow of who I used to be?
(Back Vocals) (OOH HOO)
It isn't how I planned it out, but there's no doubt, that's my life for you...
(Back Vocals) (OHH HOO)
So be who you really are; it just doesn't matter...
Can't you see..... you're meant to be.. nobody but yourself. As there really is nothing, much else in this world left you can lose..
So take my hand, try to understand where I am coming from...
(Back Vocals) ( OHH HOO)
Can't you see I've had enough, of all the lies and games that people play...
(Back Vocals) (OOH HOO)
Just want to be by myself; it just doesn't matter...
Can't you see... you're meant to be... nobody but yourself. As there really is nothing, much else in this world left you can lose.
(Guitar Solo One)
(Guitar Solo Two) (Arpegiated Pianos)
(Cut drums- leaving piano and vocalists)
(Decellerando, decrescendo to end)
(Back Vocals) (OOH HOO)
Hook (Lead Vocals and piano)
As there really is nothing, much else in this world left you can lose....(end)