Two years ago, the LORD put it on my heart to do a worship album. I was very reluctant because I knew what would lie ahead: Pride, Fear of Man's Approval (or lack thereof), Support, Trust, Faith, etc. I knew that all of these things would be tested. And tested they were. Interestingly, these songs were written during a journey that I was on called HimeBushido, which means "The Way of the Warrior Princess" in Japanese.
The first three were written during my one hundred days of preparation. The remaining six, and countless others that didn't make it onto the album, started to come out of me a few months after we came home from "camp" on May 1, 2011, when I was finally able to verbalize everything the LORD had walked me through.
From the end of camp on, I have been known to my inner circle, or Phalanx, as Red Warrior, until April 24, 2013, when I began to process the past two years, that week being the very week that we were at camp, as well as everything finally coming to a head and a halt last week. Something that I will not share publicly.
But the LORD knew. He had strategically placed the warriors around me to catch me, tend to my heart, and bring me back from the dead (no, not literally), after I, like the Red Warrior in 'The Last Samurai' "lost my head." All this time, I thought I was given that name for one reason, when really, I had been given that name because I would end up walking the same path as the Red Warrior. And then I knew - her season was over; almost instantly, I knew my new name and the new season that I would be walking.
And this worship CD, this CD that I thought He was creating for the people, was always intended just for me. All along, He was teaching me how to worship Him the way that He wants me to worship Him. And worshiping Him with it I have been. And isn't it amazing that something that I have been working on for two years, is suddenly new and speaking to me in ways that it didn't before. Oh how I love His WORD! His SWORD! He is exciting! And I am praising Him for bringing me from death to life!!!
He is so GOOD!