Matt Chestnut / Blog

Silver lining

I've never really have written a blog before. I read quite a few, but never took it upon myself to try it. So here it goes...The last year and a half of my life has been the hardest time in my life. I've always been playing music, but music doesn't always pay the bills, especially if you are not yet well known. So just like most struggling musicians I have to work a steady job on the side. Well to tell the truth...I haven't had steady work for more than a year and a half. I am one of the many American's fighting through this recession. I must have applied for 2000 or more jobs. I've had 2 interviews. The competition here in south Florida is fierce. On top of that, most jobs here require you to be Bilingual. Although I am half Cuban, I don't speak Spanish. I am in the process of going to night school to learn just to help me get a job. Without solid work, obviously it has taken it's toll on my family as well as my pocket. This month on September 17th, was my 6 year wedding anniversary, it also marks our 16th anniversary of our coming together. So we've been here, fighting through it all, Together. Through all the ups and all the downs, my wife Jessica has been by my side. Any one would want to run away from all this, but she has always been there. 5 years ago we had our first child, Jubilee Alora. Which has being a true blessing in our lives. We've been scraping by. I've been playing gigs here and there, and helping friends and family with some home improvement projects. God definitely has sustained me and my family through this rough patch in our life. Don't get me wrong, I know there are people out there that suffer on a level most of us can never understand, so I, in no way, claim to be at the bottom. It can always get worse, but for me and my family it's the worst it's ever been. There's always a silver lining to those dark clouds. Although we have been going through this, there are blessings I wouldn't trade for the world. I've had a chance to spend more time with my wife and daughter. We have grown closer through it all. Not to say we haven't driven each other crazy at times, but it the end it was well worth it. I've also had time to work on music. In the past, between spending well needed time with my family, and working an 8 hour work day, there really wasn't much time to dedicate to writing, recording, and performing. I would get maybe an hour or two a day which isn't much. So I decided if I have the time now, why not put my efforts into recording my songs and forge my own path since the job front was so bleak. As of September 1st, I completed my first album. It's not a major label release, or a million dollar production. It wasn't done in a top of the line studio. It's me, my instruments, and my heart. To me it truly expresses what I want it to express: That there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. For me, my family, and my future. Through it all God has taught me that suffering, how ever painful, leads you to a choice...Buckle under it, or learn from it, and find the joy in the small things. Trust me, there have been days where I felt I can't go on any longer, but to have God, my family, and my music, there's always a reason to push forward. I thank God for this experience. I thank my wife for never giving up on me, and loving me regardless of my many flaws. If I were to die tomorrow, I would die satisfied that I was able to have time with those I love the most. That's all the really matters any way. With them by my side, no matter how dark those clouds get, there will always be a silver lining.