Starla / Blog

He brought me back to him

Today I'm thinking about his amazing grace which I don't deserve but somehow he loved me and found me, he met me In my brokenness. I walked away from God when I was 17 years old to go down my own road. For seven years I was pierced with many pains and lived a life I'm not proud of. A life where I had sex out of marriage, got pregnant, did drugs, lied to everyone, had self doubt, low self esteem, even stole. In 2011, in my brokenness and sick of the life I was leading and where I was headed I finally cried out to God and meant it. Since that day he has been restoring me. All my broken dreams, all my heartaches. He has been pruning my life of all the things that displease him, it's been slowly but I see how he has pruned things out of my life in the most peaceful loving way. Everything he has taken, bad habits, etc he has taken and filled them with himself. I also see how he was always right by myside through every mistake and he never left me. He longed for me to come home. I'm thankful today for his amazing love and grace. He saved my life. Where I felt so empty Inside and cried in pain, and hurt myself by the way I was living, he healed me. I'm reminded of the story in Luke of the lost son. As you read this i hope you know you're never too far gone. You can always come home. Come back to true love. Luke 15:11-32New International Version (NIV) The Parable of the Lost Son 11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them. 13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. 17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ 20 So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. 21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ 22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate. 25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’ 28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’ 31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

On my heart today

Felt this on my heart to share today: We were made to live a faith filled life out loud!! Not to keep Jesus to ourselves! Break the silence. Don't hide your light under a rock. You were made to Shine your light for the world to see! Don't be afraid, don't doubt, stand out and apart. Let Jesus work in your life and through you!!

Happy for my boys

I am happy to share that both of my boys excepted Jesus as their savior and prayed to have him come into their heart!! Wasn't expecting it to be both of them at the same time but praise God in how he works and when he calls in his time!! My boys have been in church since they were little and known about Jesus but never had took that step. We had watched the movie Son of God and after that movie, teary eyed, they both came to me with questions. Shortly after we were praying the most important prayer they'll ever pray!! It was awesome being able to pray that prayer with my sons. I got saved when I was 13 after watching a left behind movie. It was pretty cool because it was similar to the way my boys got saved. They will be getting baptized soon and I'm so happy for them and their new walks with the Lord!! :)


When a storm hits your life just remember nothing you go through is in vain. It must be approved by God first. There is a plan for every storm that hits your life. God does not cause the storms but he allows them for a reason. He will give you strength to make it through if you just cling to him and listen to his voice. You will be like a palm tree that bends under the pressure of the storm but does not break. All the while through the wind and rain and rage of the storm the palm tree is being made stronger. When the storm passes the palm tree flourishes standing tall and stronger than before. God will allow you to go through a storm but in the end you will flourish. Hold on to him and find refuge and shelter in him. A storm that hits your life can actually make your relationship with God stronger. He is always with us through whatever we face, he never leaves our side. Jeremiah 29:11 "for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."