I haven't been here awhile, I guess with all the things that consume my time I'm just now finding time to catch you up.
I always do my best to remain positive because changes can be hard to deal with. But the changes are what creates character.
If your life isn't constantly changing one would presume you have a pretty structured life.
I suppose structure is what we are condition to become. I'v rebelled against so much structure I discovered its just my true essence. To do something most challenging and risky is right up my alley.
But getting kicked out of school, led me to skip a grade right into high school.
Why I always thought for myself is quite enigmatic. And.. I'm sorry to those I have been a living hell to...
Eventually leading me towards something I truly love; I felt it was undeniably what I'm intending to do on Earth; Creating, Mastering, Evolving.
**** A Bending Flame of Elegant Defiance****
I hope we learn from what we see and feel everyday. As a human being how can we let another man fall? There are views that express differently but..What has absolute control taught our planet? It's a constant battle. And I'm not too knowledgeable on the matter but when you repeatedly take and take without giving the universe doesn't work like this and therefore I believe sends a negative energy pattern [like a sonar] as a collective group. Lets just say we could use a little boost. "Making Great Music" and having you sing to it. =) xo
Where do I begin… I'm totally hiding out right now. Low key and making music from every angel, Dirty Dutch, Progressive House, R&B to Deep House. Its a new year and low and behold many projects on the table. Just the act of involvement sends you towards another path. Iv thought long and hard and decided to stay on this path and to allow nothing to interfere. Years of research, development, traveling, writing, its only right that we grow at what we love the most. A.K.A-Sky Junkie
Free write whatever comes to my mind, and I continue on to write though I'm just starting i know my mind will take flight this is a free write I use to do these a lot in junior high and now i feel the freedom being set free to find my answer theres something more to this picture and I think I discover the giving in it all, and every time I wonder and everytime I dream there is a vision involved and just when I felt lonely i'm under the right spell, ever feel that your in the right place at the right time it must be something we are drawn to, however there are the obstacles that are placed to make due with doing. its an elevator, its steps, its progress and its never giving up. i couldn't express this more. its quite tender and child like but it hold great value and merit. So I continue daily to awake into all that I am and finally realize there something funny about this. Iv been here before, done this, and i succeeded. And I began to get high off life off living and i pass it to you.
The greatest reward about being this fiery being is that I get so close to myself. So close I'm touching the sun. I'm getting so warm, I can feel the fire! And in getting close to the fire, I'm finding me. I remember when I was 14 years old I made a vow to myself to live beyond what I saw in my parents. To have my own dream. When I was 17 I wanted to be closer to my higher self. I had no idea what I was doing. I just Yearned. Because thats what humans do. We want. We desire we yearn. Yet some of us fall victim to the greatest lie on earth. We fall into meaningless fate because we are too tired to achieve. Dont give up. My brothers and sisters…There is more to see.
Hoyden-A boisterous, bold and carefree girl Comeuppance- deserved reward I subscribe to dictonary.com as if I have nothing else chaotic going on in my world I like to add mustard to the top. Spicy mustard that is. Today Nov 10 and Yesterday Nov 9th I saw these two words. "Note worthy" Id say. Because Somehow I relate to this dichotomy. If you ask me what my favorite color is its Jungle Green. Blue/Green it can't be just "Pink," Just "Red" it has to me two colors that someone named one color. "Jungle Green" (Since the First Grade my fav color) I like to create chaos. Its my nature. I suffer and feel a little pain, but Iv always known that pain means reward. For every time Iv battled and fought and got bold in my decisions; I was knocked off my horse on to the ground. And Somehow when I raised myself up I elevated further than where I stood before. Get me now? So these two worlds describe me. Hoyden/Comeuppance. a reward for becoming A Bending Flame of Elegant Defiance. -Rox
I love my Country! USA all day! However Iv been feeling the vibes of other countries. The music, the Food, the languages, bringing a sound and culture thats unlike my home. I am intrigued. Its was when I first fell in love with Nigerian British singer Sade. She swept the world in her romances and with every sultry breath our hearts pounded for more. She is a world voice. Something I ask and Intended to be. I give myself persmission to be all that I can be and to allow myself to shine! I wonder what will happen here in Dubai. I moved here two months ago. I'm eager, fun, and fear does not exist. To Be Continued…
Sometimes I wonder what have I gotten myself into. The risks, the pain, the disappointments, can come crashing down like summer rain. But all along I know that with every change there is something on a grand scale. So, I except it all as the nature. Not just the business but "life." Some live out their dreams and some live out their nightmare. I chose to do the unthinkable. The most challenging and difficult industry on the face of this plant. Some how deep down I knew if I only seek and aim to be great I would succeed. and I still believe. When a man sets his mind on something and it cannot be changed; this my friends is called "FANATIC" I never knew the man I would love in such a moments notice would be challenging as well. I'm faced with cross roads. Can we really have it all?
What makes us interesting? Who are we really? Without a story how can we capture the interest of our audience? Right now my mind is prepared for the future. I'v finished 3 albums and believe me my best work isn't on the Docks. Now that I have a few years under my wings I can recap my movements. The lights went out when I was in Music class in the First grade. I was the one singing and the kids pointed me out. My teacher contacted my parents for an appointed gig singing for the Dallas Cowboys. [never happened my dad didn't agree with it] I recorded my first song in the Second grade. My brother took a song I wrote to his third grade teacher and her husband happened to be a jingle writer. I joined creative movement in the Six grade. Talent shows in the Seventh grade. High School I was in the Jazz ensemble band into college. After school began recording and singing in a local blues bands. I studied voice at the Black Arts Academy in Memphis Tennessee for 3 years. My coach told me I cheated my crowd. She helped me round my voice. I bought books about: Song writing Marketing Campaigning Billboard songs I studied and evolved my plan Aug 12 2012 I launched Ni'Ela Rocks Music is my Rebellion having discovered my reason as to why I'm still reaching out. *I transfer myself into a song. "Hello Are you there? Are you listening? I just want to feel like I'm yours"
Keeping up in the race. When I stopped racing and visualized a tunnel only big enough for me. Thats when I stopped competing and started creating. Competitiveness is good, however there are other factors we lose in the race. Dont worry about your age, dont worry so much about time and those who dont want to see you progress. Stay positive, engage where you can and try the best you can. Everything takes stages and levels. I use to think by the time I was 22 I'd be a superstar. Then I gave myself until 25 etc. When I started competing against the time I lost figor and tact. I then began to focus on areas of enhancement. Particular writing, I sucked at it. I eventually picked up a few books went to writing shops. after that vocal lessons. I invested in myself and still do. Nonetheless many artist give up the hope in exchange for stability. I feel you. I haven't been stable since 2010. Its not the coolest thing driving a 97 vehicle that drinks all your money from repairs. And renting a room to afford things that will aid in your success. Its really what we chose. Trust that the angels will guide you. The lesson is in the struggle not the victory.