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Ni'Ela Rocks / Blog

Survival Mode

Despite being displaced after hurricane Harvey and becoming completely homeless I'v learned to remain grounded and rely on my heart for more answers. I discovered that through it all I not only survived but I also developed a surviving character. A character that knows how to protect herself who knows and understands that not everyone is on your side. So protecting myself is very important if I am to survive. I felt like the rabbit out of a hat scenario. Like, I cannot believe 5 feet of natural disaster washed away my hard earned materials. And yet I find myself exactly where I want to be. I suffered a lot everyone. Abuse is no joke. Soon as ppl witness I was in need I was taken advantage of hurt, lied to, bullied, thrown on the streets and by my own family. And my so called friends treated me like I was null and didn't need anything ignoring my cry. Trauma is very real. And somehow I've learned through creating music and working this industry you have to remain ground and tough. Keeping a positive attitude certainly was a challenge and those who saw it was tough for me attempted to control me or feed on my weakness. But this weakness is also my strength. Like the video game Beast Wars "Power UP." And needless to say I'm growing mentally and I'm ready for what is to come my way. I have a better outlook on it all. And if I myself have ever hurt you, betrayed you, or left you broken. That girl wasn't me but someone who is learning to survive and protect herself.

Currently

Since the close of 2017 I have expanded a music project a collection of sounds under MODALi Music, very Retro Ambient Dance could well represent the favor of our music, including sub genres Progressive House, Trance, Psy

The contributing artist range anywhere from

Montreal, Vienna, Houston, Tel Aviv, New York, Berlin

MODALi''s music can be found at soundcloud.com/modali-music

Other works include New Representation and management soon to be announced. I'm not lost in the sea of commerciality I'll have some updates and be sure to connect to Facebook www.facebook.com/rocksniela. I make a post just about every week. Also Twitter is NielaRocks Connect with me there. This a fun platform to me.

Other than that I survived a hurricane turned flood, and its been such an eye opener that I know something is calling me to spring board a change. And I hope to inspire.

My loved ones are safe and out of harms way as well as my friends and family. Stay beautiful out there. No matter the weather don't forget to bring your own sunshine.

I have to be honest

If I told you it were a slice a cake to travel the roads unknown I'd be kidding myself and forgetting the most important lesson; to seek transitions that are healthy for me. I can only help who I am. Some get me some do not give me the chance. But the ones who did and continue to lift me up, carry me through and love what I have also grown to love are close by. So never forget to let the good times roll... Peace to all 2018 and something brighter

Staring Back at Myself

Is it a chase? Is it okay, to dream or to see what cannot not be seen, A high stage like a high priest and crowds of crowds o began to scream. I hear you but can you hear me? What is this place? A chase? A dream? A taunt no one but I has seen. As taboo as this may seem yet an opening that has pulled me into the sea. Wide like a shooting range but dead on yet head on as I sieze the day. A lions hunt lost in disarray, I come from beneath to say I saw what you didn't. And out of my body I lay staring back at my beautiful bright and happy face. One day nearing soon, uncertainty and dubious face I sit and wait while staring back at myself.

Open My Eyed Big And Wide

Like I'm ready to Fly Will you catch me if I fall Into the Ocean Side Wave Good Bye.. I posted this Acoustic and Vocal track though it sounds far off; the words simply mean washing away what I was to make way for something more, like dancing on mars as I speak of later in the track. Its Where I find my balance. To continue to wash the old away and dance around as if I were on the moon when in actuality I'm on this Blue planet. To change is to prefect, thus my testament to invention. Hope your following me on this one.

Light Switch

Its been sort of weird like I'm searching in the Dark. Although life isn't going exactly as planned somehow I'm always well taken care of. A lot of reasons I felt so lost early on was because how innocent I was and gullible to beast, monsters and devourer's of our time. I finally learned to adapt and my courage is getting stronger. I give it my all to figure out this strange place we call home. Planet EARTH. So, about music currently? Working on two releases with Fashion Music Records, (Moscow). And an ambiguous collaboration with Chaz a bass guitarist rhythm guitar, songwriter I'm finding my trueness, my rebellion. And who am I really? That's why I call it a light switch.

Just when it get's good It get's really BAD!

I just want to know how old will I have to be to understand what is going on. I miss myself. Yah I might have lost a piece of me through this roller of a coaster. Never thought I'd be fighting for something that I'm use to having. And to compound matters, I allowed someone [or something] interfere with my judgment. My life isn't written off but it sure isn't peachy. Please Take Me With You!!! [sigh]

All About it

Imagine your glass is half empty and white zinfandel is getting warm, how I feel right now, From one to the next. On a mission, not concerned about that glass half empty or that glass getting warm. If I lived near the woods, I'd probably go frolicking in the woods and if it were autumn I'd kick and toss around in the leaves because that's what you do when your imagination begins to run wild. I love this capsule of a place. Noticed I said love, because when you find your heart you understand the hustle. HTX is rubbing off on me! XOXO

AND WE KEEP MOVING ON

Things couldn't be more scattered in my world right now. Beautiful and sad. The feeling of being displaced. I feel the anxiety. Everyday that little clock continues and I grasp for just a second more. And those are the conditions I seem to write best. Oddly, "they" are right.

When that emotional wave finds you...How do you face it? Do you drink yourself down the drain? Do you cry your way out? Do you shut yourself out? Do you fight it? Do you accept it and move on? Step into my perfect imbalance.

AND WE KEEP MOVING ON

Nathan Birdow
Nathan Birdow  (over 2 years ago)

Very powerful writing, it gets the mind wondering. Thanks for the insight.

In this very Moment

In this very moment I feel lifted. It feels like yesterday I was riding a bike on training wheels and have now out grown those wheels into something I can control and be proud of.

Feels a lot like summer. After the storms and constant raining I've drifted towards the new. Like the change of season from one to the next.

What is in this very moment I felt the magic surrounding me. Love, understanding, health, free energy that is something contagious. xoxo