I have always believed that at the very core of most people there is good. When they behave badly it is usually because they have been hurt and so they hurt others, hurt people hurt people. Still, I can't help but be shocked and confused when it becomes clear that someone is disregarding or has disregarded me on purpose, especially someone whom I hold in high regard, and especially if the disregard is for no apparent reason. This is the risk you take. So, I have believed in someone and what they say. I have appreciated the things that they did to affirm and held on to those affirmations when there were only words left, and then there were no words, just shock and disbelief. Risks, especially where people are concerned, must be taken, no matter the situation; because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. To laugh is to risk appearing a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out for another is to risk involvement. To explore feelings is to risk exposing your true self. To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. People who risk nothing have nothing, and are nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, or live. Chained by their fears, they are slaves, and have forfeited freedom, for only people who risk are free. So, despite the hazards of doing so, I must continue to take risks and believe anyway, love anyway; be honest and frank anyway; be happy anyway; be kind anyway; forgive anyway; do good anyway; and most of all give the world my best anyway.
"There is always someone worse off than you" is a phrase that I have used often and with great success on others as well as on myself. After all, misery loves company and the more worse off than you, the better, right? But wait a minute isn't thinking this way a little like putting someone else down so that you can feel better, or is it merely pointing out that someone else is more down than you? I do have my days when it doesn't matter that someone else is worse off than me. I just want to be able to wallow in my misery, and wallow in silence: wallow until I can wallow no more. Then I rise up out of misery like a phoenix out of the ashes, with hope burning in my soul and determination in my heart. Look out, I'm about to rise and soar!!
Beginning this month I am going to start blogging more. I will do my best to keep stuff that is way too personal out of it but who knows; online journals can take on a life of their own, kind of like characters in a book or play. Speaking of which, this will be the year that I finally write my book and more songs. So my peeps you have some things to look forward to from me. There are so many things that I have observed in life, especially about relationships. Unfortunately, I know more about maintaining a bad one than about having a good one but I am hopeful and open and I am learning each time a little more about myself in the process. One thing I know is that I have no problem believing that I am lovable and deserve the best and with that having been expressed I am looking forward to this new year and looking forward to the blessing, great experiences, successes, and love that is in store for me. Peace out!
I really love to sing and have been doing so since my first memory of life. I am attempting to record more now so that you can enjoy my gift to you long after the doors close for the night. - Best sla