Keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be okay. I know me and Faith broke up tonight, but I am hoping something will work out for me eventually. I known Faith for 6 1/2 years, and now she is leaving me because of a stupid mistake I made a year ago which she just found out. And she won't take me back either.
But it's official. Me and Faith are not together anymore. I'm gonna stay single and wait for everything to heal. Me and Faith were together on and off like a switch for 6 1/2 years, and there was a lot of shit that went on since then. But she given up on me and is now acting very negatively towards me on her pages and the relationship really soured. Even the things she's been saying about me is blown out of proportion.
It sucks because, I invested 6 years into this woman and after all the shit we've been through together, now she's giving up on me because of a stupid mistake I made on NYE 2011 and never giving me a chance again.
I am no angel, but I tried to be a good boyfriend to her despite the ups and downs. I really thought this woman was the one for me. Apparently not. And it's her loss for breaking up with me and ranting about me in the social-media. I'm moving on, and I am determined to make sure life will be still amazing.
The Bay Area music scene isn't what it used to be. I've been playing in SF since 2001, and making dedicated fans and success here is more frustrating than trying to pay the rent. Plus all the venues make it impossible for local bands to exist nowadays because of pay-to-play. Finding people to play music with here is even worse because they're more into the whole DJ and hip hop thing, and the rock bands here are all metalcore and there's no place for the music I'm trying to put out. Dot-com yuppies are making this place harder to thrive on anything artistic. Long story short, I am originally from the Bay Area music scene and it sucks the life out of being a musician now. I am glad there's the Internet because that helps people pay attention to what I'm doing. I'm glad I have fans outside of California that actually care...
So I'm ready to get myself showcased to talent scouts. I am sure there are people watching what I do and who I am on many different websites I'm signed up and have profiles on. I am willing to take it to the next level and get more recognized for who I am and what I do. I have the talent and hard working mentality, so it's a start!
Okay guys! It's 2013, and I'm planning to write material in my own home recording studio for an EP or so. This time, I'm keeping the music straight-forward crunchy garage rock and more like my trademark sound. Aside from attempting to make new music for a mini album, I'm still doing research for spots I can do open mics at when the weather gets better this year. It's gonna be an amazing 2013 for Heavy Sigma!
I am scratching out the whole idea about busking in Summer 2013. I think I am gonna try and do open mic instead at Clement Ave as my return to live performing onstage. It just dawned on me that it be more convenient and presentable to switch from busking to actually doing open mic in Summer 2013.
Now it's time to practice, practice, and more practice! :)
At 27 years old, I think it's about time to settle down. I got a good girlfriend and a lot of dreams for me and her! Does this mean I'm retiring from the music business? Not at all. But I'm really toning down because I have a girlfriend I really love, and I want a steady and awesome future with her. Don't get me wrong, I will always be playing music and recording a new album sporadically, but I'm getting older and I'm thinking realistic about being an adult.
My real dream isn't fame and fortune. It's love and being able to share that with someone 24/7. And love left San Francisco a long time ago, and of course I will always be making and playing music sporadically. But I have a vision for the woman I love and me. And that's more fulfilling than playing sold out shows across the Bay Area and making little gain as a result of it.
So it's time to wind down my music career full-time and think realistic dreams and goals as an adult.
I thank you guys over the years for the continuing support.
Sincerely, Patrick Lew
I don't get enough likes or comments on my Facebook page for my band. But truthfully, it doesn't bother me that much anymore. As long as there's mofos listening and downloading my music I made with Heavy Sigma on here, I'm pretty sure there's people doing that online.
Regardless what people think, I am making it small as a musician.
I mentioned about a month ago on Facebook about returning to live performing in the Bay Area. Despite being in rehab getting treatment for several personal issues I've been dealing with lately, I've been practicing twice a week for 2 hours preparing for my comeback to playing shows for Summer 2013 outdoors in downtown San Francisco.
I've really missed playing shows and I want to rehearse for about 8 or 9 months to prepare myself as a busker to go outdoors to play some music. I might invest in more musical gear in case I don't have the essentials to perform outdoors publicly. I won't promise anyone anything, but I do really want to play shows in Summer 2013 as I'm taking a break from recording new material at the moment. I'm planning to play some of the best songs I've created onstage, alongside some jam band free-form improvisations along with it. I won't be selling my CD, but I was thinking about getting Vistaprint to make me a lot of business cards advertising Heavy Sigma and everything.
Again, I am not promising anything and promising this will go as planned. But I do want to go back onstage, and I will do my best within the next 8 or 9 months getting prepared for it unless something holds me back.
So yeah, I'm in 3 bands technically right now. Jamming and playing some music and stuff. I'm in Heavy Sigma, Patrick Lew Band, and I'm starting a new band with my younger friends Ian and Joe at the moment. I never was in an imaginary rock band, Mr. Kao, I breathe and have the passion for music! Period.
For the Summer 2013 outdoor free concerts, the one I'm planning to do, I'm gonna do 4 to 5 songs or pieces of music per set and per day. I won't do a set list, so I will be playing the best of my material since 2001 out of a hat and some hippie jam band improvisations. I am trying to persuade friends to join me. It could be just me with a bunch of guitar rig doing my rocking thang, or two people playing outdoors with our guitars. There will be promo materials such as business cards I am planning to get made from Vistaprint to get my name out.