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Turquoise Rose / Blog

The Fading Dream....

Good morning all, I haven't written a blog for some time now because they generally don't seem to get much response, ha! I've been doing a lot of thinking/soul searching lately about life, etc...and have come to the decision to hang up my hat concerning trying to make a dent in the Music Industry. We all have dreams we'd like to fulfill in life, but the reality is most dreams are rarely fulfilled. Count yourself Blessed if yours are. So, after 40 years of trying, I've decided to just create songs when I can, not for money, but because I love it so much and still have so many I've written that lack music. Besides, if it brings a smile to anyone's face or touches anyone's heart that should be worth more than money anyway, right? Music and Art have always been important to me. It's a passion and a great venting tool too, lol! Gotta face it though, after a certain age (say about age 20) the chances of getting anywhere in the music industry becomes increasingly difficult with every passing year...sad but true. So, I'm giving free downloads to anyone who's interested. Why? Truth is, I've only made about $3.56 cents from all the sites I've put my music on for many years now. I've invested so much more than that thru the years and if you don't get any return for your investments that's not good, it truly sucks as a matter of fact, lol! I appreciate the ones of you who have been supportive by listening, becoming a fan and friend and for all the great comments/compliments, it has always kept me going, Thank You sooo much! I'll still write and sing but not as much as I once did. My new focus will be on other ventures in effort to earn enough to survive. I live in a small studio garage apt (with a front door view of a six foot alley fence, lol,) which costs half a grand a month, then there's bills, food for me and my sweet little dog, money to help my son and others, gas for the car, etc...(Ridiculous!). My SS isn't even enough to cover food for a month, ha! Thank God for friends who have helped me survive. It's too bad life and the world aren't what they used to be, but, as they say, 'That's Life!'. I feel sorry for the young people growing up in today's world. There's a lot of pressure and it's harder to make ends meet. It seems Greed is taking over the world. I do feel very blessed however to have any place at all. There are so many people on earth who have much less than I do. A lot of people live on the streets. I feel for everyone and always help others when I can. I wish you all the best in your life and ventures! I don't have all my songs ready for download yet, but will do my best to have them ready within a couple days so check back if interested. I'll send out an email from Reverb to those on my mailing list. Thanks again and God Bless You and Yours, and have a wonderful day. Cheers to music, Cheers to you! Olivia

Godly verses Worldly lyrics

Daily Dilemma: Can both 'Godly' and 'Worldly' lyrics exist in your music simultaneously if you are a Christian or is it a double standard?

Will Believers be turned off by both views? Will non-Believers be confused by both views? Should writers be able to express themselves on both sides of the coin without suffering judgement? They say you can't serve two masters and I have been sitting on a fence between them for a long time. I realize many of my song lyrics are questionable and being a Christian myself I have honestly been struggling with this dilemma more and more. I like to write whatever pops into my mind but at the same time I don't want to send the wrong message of who I truly am, who I love and where my trust lies. I believe in God and I despise Satan! It seems the closer you walk with God the harder Satan works to veer you away. Perhaps the balance of both views may be tied into how they are presented? Maybe I need to label my songs 'wrong' and 'right', ha! What do you think? Come on, don't be shy...let it all hang out! Have any of you ever felt like this? (-;

Music....Playing the Game of Chance!

First, before I get into the crux of this blog I want to Thank everyone who has become a friend/fan of mine, has joined my mailing list and has followed me on Twitter, etc! To be perfectly upfront and honest, I haven't had the time needed to follow up with many of you by returning the favor with a listen, 'like', TY, etc the way I aspire to. So to each of you, I offer my apologies. I have tried to keep up as much as humanly possible but it is very time consuming which I'm sure you know. Unfortunately, there is just 'never' enough time in a day or a life to do everything we'd like to do! From my heart: I have been, (am now) and will always be grateful for every one of you for listening and hopefully enjoying the music I have added to Reverb Nation. Reverb is a wonderful platform and each of you are wonderful singer/songwriter/musicians in your own right!!!

I realize that Reverb is a musical interactive site. If you don't keep up with it you lose your footing so to speak, lol! It seems that as 'most things in life' it takes lots of time, energy, effort and Money to even stand a small chance of succeeding in anything, including the proverbial Music Industry. Sad but true! I have followed the love of music path more years than I care to count, ha! I can't begin to tell you how many pairs of mental and emotional shoes I've literally worn out since I began chasing the dream...but I'll never stop dreaming! I will always love music and will continue to write and sing as long as I'm able but as of today...I will no longer be playing the game so to speak. If you enjoy my music and the talented musicians I work with, Thank You, that's great! We appreciate it more than you can possibly know. I will continue to listen, comment, etc to your music when I'm able, but not for the sake of becoming popular or climbing any charts! I will listen because I 'WANT' to and when time permits! (-: I wish the very Best of everything to all of you and your music careers. Cheers...Keep rowin' the boat! May God Bless you Always! Much Love and Respect! 'Yours in Song', Turquoise Rose

'Subliminal 2' wrap up!

Well, it's been a couple days of being side tracked by work and other projects as usual...Yes, life happens while you're making other plans.

So I ask...is Satan secretly stealing our souls out from under us by using 'subliminal' messages? )-: I say Yes! Is there any other explanation for all the hate, greed and insanity going on in the world? Satan comes to seek and destroy and it seems he is having a hay day!

It's claimed our eyes are the windows to our souls. If this is true then what we watch affects our spirits. Looks like what we are being fed is 'Subliminal' Satanic junk food from Hell's kitchen. A vast smorgasbord of 'hot' hors D'oeuvres meant to fatten your flesh for the kill! It's a menu of nothing but immoral abominations which will eat the soul from the inside out! Viewers beware…Acid Reflux from these evil meals can rot the very gut of morality! Don't take my word for it, DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH! May GOD save us ALL!

*I always try to follow my instincts when writing which happened to lead to the idea of incorporating 10 numbers into the song after I thought it was finished. Numerology popped into mind after counting how many tracks there were in this song. There are 13 vocal trks and 13 instrumental trks (13= 1+3=4). If you add 13 and 13 you get 26 (2+6=8)

Here is one interesting info link I found for the #8: http://www.ridingthebeast.com/numbers/nu8.php

* You may find the link boxes on the right navigation panel of this webpage above very informative as well! Happy reading!

So, some people think numerology is evil in itself yet there are many numerology links I found that are Biblical as well. I used the numbers 1-22-40-12-4-10-6-3-7 and 9 in this song. This is the link I found that inspired the number sequence (excluding #9):


The #9 isn't in the song itself but it is in fact the time the song ends, 5:31 which is (5+3+1= 9)

When I Googled 'God numerology 9 meaning' I found this link:


*Here are a couple other links pertaining to 9 as well:



Well, that's all my lip for now….the rest is up to you. (-: Thank you to all my friends and fans for all your support! I would love to hear your opinions, comments or questions concerning this song so don't be shy. (-: I will answer back!


These lyrics came to me out of the blue after watching YouTube videos about the Illuminati (Free Masons), *Satan within the music Industry ' and' songs others have reversed that seem to reveal satanic messages. It's very scary stuff, not to be taken lightly!

*Here are some video links to check out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42N6LrEpPyI (One World Order) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmbYaMgxNLE&feature=endscreen&NR=1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idAz7mFKPrc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZdNu9x9u9I http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiQMlNWwwnM www.youtube.com/watch?v=376uDH0T2MY

*NOTE: It is up to you, the viewer to draw your own conclusions after watching these Videos. They are merely documented sources based on others opinions.

Before going any further I want to make it perfectly clear that I believe in God! I take everything else, such as numerology, etc with a grain of salt! I believe in discerning over judging for judging is Gods job, not mine. When taking on a project such as this one you automatically run the risk of being misunderstood, misinterpreted and/or judged. But, as with anything pertaining to life in general, we all must face the good, bad, ugly and indifferent on some level every single day. *My prayer is that God will use me for His Glory, not mine! **I DO KNOW THIS…if my God given talents ever bring me into the limelight it will be by Gods choice and 'NOT' because I sold my soul to get there! May God Bless you all!

I had been invited to offer ideas for a Kompoz project but declined because of other projects I have been trying to get caught up on for some time now. But, it's very hard to get caught up when new ideas/lyrics keep coming, lol! There is never enough time in a day, right? Anyway…needless to say, I was going to create some music for these lyrics I wrote this week , then the music project I had been invited to 'We Ridin' popped into my mind. So, I thought I'd see if the lyrics would fit, which surprisingly they did. I submitted a quick idea track to the project but don't think it will be used.

*The word Subliminal (reversed) says 'I'm in Memphis'. This wasn't intentional but after I finished the song I decided to listen to it in reverse out of curiosity and that is exactly what it sounds like to me. So, I decided to google 'Memphis' and found out that Memphis is a town in Egypt where the most famous Pyramids and Sphinx are. I reworked the song, adding in some of my lyrics reversed. The line, 'Never, never be immortal' reversed sounds like ' Why don't we eat Mervin, Mervin'. I Google searched Mervin and found it has many meanings I wasn't aware of. Some seemed to fit right in with the lyric meaning too, ha! The words 'Stop, rewind, reverse' say: 'Serve you, Now we're Hot' backwards which shocked me because that was the underlying message in a few of the Satan in the music industry videos I viewed. *(People selling their souls to the devil to become famous major Artists!)

*SEE Blog 'Subliminal2' for wrap up!

Half the Sky Movement

Just a note to let you know that any funds received from song sales for the Half the Sky Movement charity that were written and performed for Kompoz projects, etc will go to the owner of that song project! Thank You for your support! Olivia/TR

Acedia (Be Aware)

Struggling with a 'bad thought' VIRTUAL REALITY April 06, 2010|By Kathleen Norris, Special to CNN

Author Kathleen Norris says the best way to battle acedia is to "recognize it and resist it when it strikes."

On a recent trip across America, what surprised me most was the number of people -- over 200 in one city, 80 to 150 elsewhere -- who wanted to discuss this odd word, "acedia."

It's an ancient term signifying profound indifference and inability to care about things that matter, even to the extent that you no longer care that you can't care.

I liken it to spiritual morphine: You know the pain is there but can't rouse yourself to give a damn.

The concept of acedia was developed by Christians in the fourth century who had fled to the deserts of the Middle East, opting for a simple life in rebellion against a newly legal, wealthy and politically powerful church. Today, we would say that they went off the grid.

These men and women quickly discovered that although they had left material possessions behind, they hadn't shed their inner demons. They developed a sophisticated psychology of the "eight bad thoughts" that commonly troubled them, the most spiritually devastating of which were acedia, anger and pride.

Several centuries later, as the church developed its doctrine of the "seven deadly sins," acedia was tucked into the sin of sloth, and the word disappeared from the common vocabulary. Unless you were a student of monastic history or medieval literature, chances are, you would never encounter it.

I wrote my book because I suspected that although the word "acedia" is unfamiliar to most of us, its effects are widely known. When I compared the classic descriptions of acedia with the plagues of contemporary society -- a toxic, nearly unbearable mix of boredom and restlessness, frantic escapism (including that of workaholism), commitment-phobia and enervating despair -- I found the ancient demon of acedia in modern dress.

Acedia can manifest as either extreme lethargy or hyperactivity, but it is not merely an individual spiritual problem. It affects communities as well. And it was this aspect of acedia that my audiences wanted to discuss.

They raised questions about addictions to the Internet and "virtual reality," about fractured families who are so hyper-scheduled that they no longer spend much time together, about the dissonance of living in a society that is the wealthiest in history but whose citizens remain dissatisfied, gobbling up drugs for anxiety, depression and sleep disorders at an alarming rate.

*Link: http://articles.cnn.com/2010-04-06/living/got.acedia.spiritual.morphine_1_spiritual-acedia-care?_s=PM:LIVING

What's Up!

Had a lovely evening with DJ Grizz, Sweets and the gang last night (Sun. 23rd)on Forest Radio where I was honored as their Featured Artist. It's always nice knowing and feeling appreciated for your talents. Grizz and Sweets have a Featured Artist every Sun night so drop in when you can, create a chat name and have some fun! It airs at 7pm (est). Here's the link: http://grizzlysforest.ca/#

Mike James
Mike James  (over 6 years ago)

So sorry I missed it Rose! I'll just have to rack up some plays to make it up to you :-)