As I walk through this world
Grown and past my prime
I look back on all the paths I've left
Am I wicked, am I damned
Am I wretched now in exile, shunned
By a light I once held in my hands

I'll come unto His house and hearing His sweet song
To his glory and my shame, this unburdened song
And I'll try to remain, but it crushes me with fear
And with its light and turns my world upon its side
I'll leave before I'm upside-down

And I have heard that he died
For we could not see that he died in order that we might
With him I've cried "Father why have you forsaken me?"
And he is gone now but I remain
I am wretched O and I am damned
I am wicked now, in exile shunned
By a light I once held in my hands

I'll come unto His house
And hearing His sweet song
To his glory and my shame, this unburdened song
And I'll try to remain, though it crushes me with fear
And with its light and turns my world upon its side
I'll leave and I will weep and I will scream
Of repeating I will dream
My hands will claw for anything
But it's nothing they'll receive
I'll twist agony from ecstasy
And throw to the dirt the gifts he's given me
For long ago I left His way and shouted
"He was never there."