A Letter to My Duaghter

2008-11-17T10:54:29-05:00

Letter To My Daughter
By Jamil Jasey

I wish I could explain why you had to die and why I am still living. There is no explanation possible. If I could be face to face with you…I would tell you that my world revolved around you. Your birth was something special. Your birth was something to be heralded. You were born, but seventeen days wasn’t long enough. Seventeen days wasn’t enough time to teach you everything you needed to know. Seventeen days…and then you were gone. My world was shattered…there was nothing left for me to do. I couldn’t save you. With all of the technology we have now….no one could save you. I wake up in cold sweats because I see you in my dreams. We have conversations. You are wise beyond your age. I find comfort in you. You have become my angel. I find solace in knowing you are still with me. However, I need you here in the physical and you…you aren’t here. I wonder is GOD a comedian? Is this some kind of sick, cosmic joke? If so, why did he have to play it on me? I would have given my life for yours. My life would have been your life. For you, I would have done anything. You were strong, you held out long enough to open your eyes and look at me. I saw a little smile come across your face. You tried to laugh but the sound didn’t come out. I wanted to tell you that..I wouldn’t stop at just giving you the world. I planned on giving you the universe. However, you passed and became one with the universe. I remember a few days later I tried to commit suicide. It didn’t work. I was meant to suffer. There was nothing left…except my writing. Through your death came inspiration. Kind of ironic isn’t it. It wasn’t supposed to happen that way.
My love for you is unconditional. I miss you, there is no other way to put it. I want to write more but..but, I want to say…I will hold you dearly in my heart forever. My upcomign album is dedicated to you.

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