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Where are my friends. I have replied to become friends but it seems I become fans only. I need friends. To date I have none! I really am worthy of friendship. I'm male to female transgender and I hope that is not the reason I have no friends here. I am a wonderful person why don't you read my story and judge for yourself. My story.
Emily (Edward D. Iannielli III)
(Emily is not legal name yet)
I admire the musician for their music that touches and heals us the fans in some way. I admire the writer for telling a story that captivates us and draws our attention. I admire my parent for teaching me good morals and allowing me to believe in myself. Emily
I have always been devoted to my family, always took pride in my work and approached all my assignments with eagerness, dedication and enthusiasm. I was always professional, responsible, loyal and very dedicated in all my pursuits including college and committed in handling and managing the financial needs that come with home ownership. I am now unable to work as I have struggled with depression and my gender identity since early childhood and had a recent breakdown and a painful realization of needing to transition . It is sad and unfortunate that people who suffer depression are looked upon as weak and considered to have a strike against them and are usually not even considered in the recruiting process. It amazes me how our society makes us feel less of a person if we exhibit any form of medical condition from the norm such as depression, transgender or other form of disability.
I just feel I can do so much in helping my son. I can advocate for autism related causes. I can advocate for transgender related causes. I have to believe again and continue to write to help me try to make some sense of this difficult time in our lives.
Now I will share this which brings a tear to my eyes when I think back to what could have been. I struggled as clearly discussed with gender issues since early childhood as my son struggles for different reasons and the only way I could find my way of coping aside from cross dressing underneath my male attire was to participate in sports. I played little league baseball and was pretty good as I played shortstop and second base. Well I was crushed when I missed the final cut from the tryouts for the high school baseball team which deeply hurt me because I did not know who I was and I was living a lie and was not able to be the guy I was supposed to be.
I did excel in school as math and physics were my favorite classes. However that was not enough for me so I started thinking of ways I would take my life and I remember the day as if it just happened yesterday as it was life changing and reaffirming and changed me in a good way. You see I was suffering from depression, low self esteem despite my good grades, painful isolation and total lack of confidence with the girls. I just felt I fit nowhere and asked what is the point of my very existence when I saw my parents struggling. I planned to overdose on a mix of aspirin and sleeping pills. Sorry for the graphic honesty but I feel the point I'm trying to make has to reflect the facts and I'm not good at sugarcoating things especially when it can help someone, the truth that is. As I said, I was planning to take the deep sleep as I knew where my mom kept the medicines and in those days there were no safety locks or safety caps. I was 16, desperate and it was one day before the weekend. On Friday early afternoon in the fall during the early start of the school year back in 1978 a teacher approached me as i stood in line for my lunch. He looked at me and in that moment of time his words were forever engrained in my mind when he looked at me in the eyes and said "I want you to run for me" as I looked at him in complete surprise and asked him what he meant. He turned to me and said, "son, I want you to run cross country for my junior varsity team" and I said ok and I was so happy that someone believed in me and it was my track and cross country coach, Alan Berkowsky, a wonderful man who made such an impact on me and changed my whole perspective.
He saved my life and he never knew the impact he made on me..
There are people who truly make a difference in our lives aside from our parents and family and Coach Alan Berkowsky is my role model, hero and life saver. I dedicate this writing to him.
Cordial greetings from CZ-PL.
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