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KeyloWick / Blog

Acceptance

I quit smoking. I'm off my meds. I've lost my head. I can't be stopped. I've tried. At least 3 times. Death is not accepting. Death would not accept me. Fear has left me. I am not accepting. I will know no defeat.

Open Up

In Love, with Love, thru Love. I know we can get thru this. Let the positive vibrations flow..

Ms. Lantier

I had this teacher, Ms. Lantier. She cared. She showed me in 4th grade when my parents divorced. I punctured my ear drum with a sharpened pencil, and received my first pair of glasses in her class (2nd grade) I broke those glasses in fourth grade, in a fight I had with a fifth grader. He was mad I scored a touchdown. So he made me cry. My "girlfriend" stopped talking to me as soon as she found out. I had friends too! So many friends! We used to hang out a lot in Elementary School. I don't remember what happened to all of my friends. It felt like I blinked 1 too many times and all of a sudden, I was all alone.

Troubled

I'm the type to get arrested for no reason. Get caught with some weapon(s)/hair brush. Get sent to lock down. Than have my hour taken away for paraphernalia/coffee and vandalism/artwork... Ai-yi-yi. I must be a troubled.

The Internal Search..

You can't keep looking to others to make you feel the way you wish to feel. Only YOU can make YOU Truly happy. Cease the external search for what is not physical. For happiness is an emotion. An emotion, something we feel. Though, you could than say, "hey keylow, I use my hands to feel", and I in turn would reply, "Yes, but can you feel your heart?"

Evil Keeps Me

I'm not understanding. I feel the ground beneath me crumbling, attempting to swallow me whole. Even as I tip-toe, the hole grows. I'm losing balance. Have I missed my chance. Devil knocks, demons dance. I'm in need of a level head. Working for metaphoric bread. I don't see the point in it. Why must it be. How can I be free. Is this my destiny. Reaching and reaching. Sleeping and dreaming. Will the evil always keep me?

Advancing

I cannot tell you everything, for everything is not for me to tell. I tell you this, I tell them that. That is this, and this is that. What is now, will never be again. Change is inevitable. What we must do, we do what we must. That is the truth, truth is thus. We will keep fighting, we will not bow down to no man. This man, stands strong, foundation firmly planted, this ground I walk on, holds me back no longer. I continue forth. Head high, eyes forward, feet moving. Advancing.

Must Be the Internet..

I just got blocked by a man claiming to be "Standing for his people" by having all the "white" people delete themselves... If you're not going to accept the entire picture, just leave the brush on the canvas until you can learn to appreciate your own self-acceptance. I'm not here to make others look or feel stupid, but only to bring recognition to the ignorance of the World. Step correct or get checked. And if you're going to stand for something, make sure it's your own 2 feet. Peace Be Upon Us.

Absolute

You speak with such absolutes, who are you, for your words prove nothing. Empty like a hollow log, abandoned in the forest of solitude. Searching for the light, underneath the canopy of the living. Open your eyes and SEE, for the Son, does not hide, it has only been covered. To rise again once more. For thy will be done. Thy Kingdom, Come.

Experimental Accidents..

I feel. my life is an experiment.To someones. Or somethings. Just watching me. Seeing what I do. Where I go. How I handle myself. What if they are I. I am them. Sometimes. I sit. I think. About the bad. All the bad things. I've committed. I wonder. Why? Why it had to be that way. I am as I have become. A mere child. Walking amongst them all. For what is not found, can not be lost. Love me. Hate me. I am Me.