I can definitely hear a change in my voice since i began doing this some years ago. It's gotten deeper & more raspy. I think it has even MORE character than it did before. One thing's for sure....i have the BEST time flowing however my "wind" is blowing. I simply DO what i feel like doing. By nobody's standards. I'm doing me. Whatever work through me...i'm going to lay it. How ever it may sound or be. Musical versatility is one of the most freeing feelings if you can imagine. If i think he or she need to hear certain things, i'm going to say whatever i think that is. If i want to rap/sing about my life, i'll do that too. I truly appreciate each & every person for supporting what i do. If God allows me to continue...i will.
I was born an analytical thinker. Able to critique a situation & quickly come up with a solution. I have memories as far back as being in the actual crib wobbling, standing, holding onto its bar for dear life. Eyes big as saucers. Mostly everything in the room was 10x larger than i was. The cartoon print onesie zipped up to my neck almost pinching it snugged my body & feet so tight, it felt like i was wrapped in a cocoon. I watched my parents quickly walk pass me. Back & forth both getting fabulously dressed as they gave me an occasional "...aw, look at my poobear sweet Keekee." smile. They seemed to be running late for something. Perfume & cologne filled the air. I grew restless. Tears began to well. I wanted out this crib. Free from the bars. FREE from being held against my will so was the way i perceived. I wanted to go with them or at the very least, roam & crawl with no destination in sight. I watched them put their coats on. It upset me to a point of no return because somehow i knew i wasn't going too. I stuck out my bottom lip, jumped up & down, rattled the bar as hard as i could & started to cry. Seconds later, i heard heels coming toward me. I don't remember anything else after and i have to say my parents were/are good people who did the best they could with what they had. See, it's ingrained in our dna very early on to come up with a strategy to get what we want but most importantly what we NEED to survive in a cold calculating world. Somehow over time, due to either loss of self respect/self love, hardship and/or tragedy, we become reliant on self medication of many sorts. The answers are RIGHT there inside us. Why we do, think & act the way we do later in life. No drug, alcohol or misery circle will lead us to the solution we seek. We don't need an outside person giving us the answers to questions we already know. PS...Versatility of strengths can be the spotlight on the many wonderful dimensions you possess. Embrace them. Focus on them. Get knee deep in them. There has to be something you love to do. Everyone has at least one thing they do well. Doesn't matter how small it is. You can turn it into something both you & someone else can enjoy AND not to mention make money doing it. There's probably still a lot of ideas people could use that hasn't been invented yet. THIS is the way to channel any pain you're feeling. THIS is the way to see a better & brighter future for you & yours. One love.....NST
Why do we steadily convince ourselves of something when we otherwise outright know the truth? The very first person we lie to is ourselves then we begin a mission of using everything in us to brainwash anyone who'll listen. When the mere facts of a situation exist and these people you're telling know what they are, they see STRAIGHT thru to the bottom line. Emotional pain is probably the hardest job you'll ever deal with in life but ya gotta GET right in order to BE right. In order to be ok with yourself. Be ok with the people you love & the ones that love you MORE than life itself. Those who can't cope or refuse to deal with pain...well.....you open a faucet of blood you never shut it off. Understand what i'm saying? THIS is why i do what i do. Way too many not understanding the root of behavior which inturn creates chaos within the mind, the home.....the life.
Let me say this. The first things we know after birth is what we"re taught. Learned behaviors span over time. Many years before we"re able to think for ourselves. It becomes ingrained in us inturn we are true to form. Not a single human being on this earth is without flaws. When we know better, is it a fact that we do better right from the start? It's been proven repeatedly.....practice will produce the best performance possible at some point and time. However, mistakes WILL be made along the way. It's simply a journey to reach a place in your life which does not include hypocrisy. I think many, if not all, of us strive for it. Walk in truth is what we want. Life doesn't have to revolve around negativity and those who aren't doing well. Those who find pleasure in other's turmoil and misfortune will soon FIND it. Feel where i'm coming from? P.S. I could never understand why some clearly possess intelligence but down-play it in many areas to appear cool. Yes, i do music with some sass, YES i use profanity, YES i sling the slang on them bars lol but in a different realm, i display what i've learned during my many years of education. Why write as if i'm illiterate when i'm not? Makes absolutely no sense. Ha ha ha ha Talk to you soon. One love.
@NST808 ......I'm in the building!
You want respect? It's earned. Give it to yourself first then others will recognize. As long as my message comes across in my music...i'm good. There's a lot of work to be done.
New tracks!! "Don't Need You" "She Dat Girl Rock'r Sh*t So Tight" "Don't Call Me Dread" Collab w/ Y & more!! Oh yeah, we get it in!!
I know a lot of you are suffering silently, souls tortured for one reason or another, hammering your mind on how, why & what you could've done to change the outcome. If they're letting you go, LET THEM let you go. If the only memories that have been created between the two of you for the last year were bad, hurtful & extremely painful, it's time to move on. It's pointless, unproductive to use precious energy to react out of spite when you can choose to hold your head high & welcome new & healthy opportunities. You have to tell yourself you're strong, you can get through it. God will see to it that doors open during the healing process. Your focus will sharpen to extensive degrees. Your standards will rise. Your intolerance for nonsense will diminish insecurities helping you to see what's real and what isn't. If the relationship was meant to be, real love will come back. But until then....as time moves at record speed.....get yours. Stay blessed. I'm routing for you.
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