Free write whatever comes to my mind, and I continue on to write though I'm just starting i know my mind will take flight this is a free write I use to do these a lot in junior high and now i feel the freedom being set free to find my answer theres something more to this picture and I think I discover the giving in it all, and every time I wonder and everytime I dream there is a vision involved and just when I felt lonely i'm under the right spell, ever feel that your in the right place at the right time it must be something we are drawn to, however there are the obstacles that are placed to make due with doing. its an elevator, its steps, its progress and its never giving up. i couldn't express this more. its quite tender and child like but it hold great value and merit. So I continue daily to awake into all that I am and finally realize there something funny about this. Iv been here before, done this, and i succeeded. And I began to get high off life off living and i pass it to you.
There something Tonic in the Air…I'm feeling brand new. I never thought New York would be a place I wanted to live. And then it hit me like an after shock. New York is for the ambitious, courageous, and enthralling individuals. If you are deep, If you are in tune, if you know what you want. Trust it will be waiting for you in New York. =)
The greatest reward about being this fiery being is that I get so close to myself. So close I'm touching the sun. I'm getting so warm, I can feel the fire! And in getting close to the fire, I'm finding me. I remember when I was 14 years old I made a vow to myself to live beyond what I saw in my parents. To have my own dream. When I was 17 I wanted to be closer to my higher self. I had no idea what I was doing. I just Yearned. Because thats what humans do. We want. We desire we yearn. Yet some of us fall victim to the greatest lie on earth. We fall into meaningless fate because we are too tired to achieve. Dont give up. My brothers and sisters…There is more to see.
Hoyden-A boisterous, bold and carefree girl Comeuppance- deserved reward I subscribe to dictonary.com as if I have nothing else chaotic going on in my world I like to add mustard to the top. Spicy mustard that is. Today Nov 10 and Yesterday Nov 9th I saw these two words. "Note worthy" Id say. Because Somehow I relate to this dichotomy. If you ask me what my favorite color is its Jungle Green. Blue/Green it can't be just "Pink," Just "Red" it has to me two colors that someone named one color. "Jungle Green" (Since the First Grade my fav color) I like to create chaos. Its my nature. I suffer and feel a little pain, but Iv always known that pain means reward. For every time Iv battled and fought and got bold in my decisions; I was knocked off my horse on to the ground. And Somehow when I raised myself up I elevated further than where I stood before. Get me now? So these two worlds describe me. Hoyden/Comeuppance. a reward for becoming A Bending Flame of Elegant Defiance. -Rox
I love my Country! USA all day! However Iv been feeling the vibes of other countries. The music, the Food, the languages, bringing a sound and culture thats unlike my home. I am intrigued. Its was when I first fell in love with Nigerian British singer Sade. She swept the world in her romances and with every sultry breath our hearts pounded for more. She is a world voice. Something I ask and Intended to be. I give myself persmission to be all that I can be and to allow myself to shine! I wonder what will happen here in Dubai. I moved here two months ago. I'm eager, fun, and fear does not exist. To Be Continued…
Sometimes I wonder what have I gotten myself into. The risks, the pain, the disappointments, can come crashing down like summer rain. But all along I know that with every change there is something on a grand scale. So, I except it all as the nature. Not just the business but "life." Some live out their dreams and some live out their nightmare. I chose to do the unthinkable. The most challenging and difficult industry on the face of this plant. Some how deep down I knew if I only seek and aim to be great I would succeed. and I still believe. When a man sets his mind on something and it cannot be changed; this my friends is called "FANATIC" I never knew the man I would love in such a moments notice would be challenging as well. I'm faced with cross roads. Can we really have it all?
What makes us interesting? Who are we really? Without a story how can we capture the interest of our audience? Right now my mind is prepared for the future. I'v finished 3 albums and believe me my best work isn't on the Docks. Now that I have a few years under my wings I can recap my movements. The lights went out when I was in Music class in the First grade. I was the one singing and the kids pointed me out. My teacher contacted my parents for an appointed gig singing for the Dallas Cowboys. [never happened my dad didn't agree with it] I recorded my first song in the Second grade. My brother took a song I wrote to his third grade teacher and her husband happened to be a jingle writer. I joined creative movement in the Six grade. Talent shows in the Seventh grade. High School I was in the Jazz ensemble band into college. After school began recording and singing in a local blues bands. I studied voice at the Black Arts Academy in Memphis Tennessee for 3 years. My coach told me I cheated my crowd. She helped me round my voice. I bought books about: Song writing Marketing Campaigning Billboard songs I studied and evolved my plan Aug 12 2012 I launched Ni'Ela Rocks Music is my Rebellion having discovered my reason as to why I'm still reaching out. *I transfer myself into a song. "Hello Are you there? Are you listening? I just want to feel like I'm yours"
Keeping up in the race. When I stopped racing and visualized a tunnel only big enough for me. Thats when I stopped competing and started creating. Competitiveness is good, however there are other factors we lose in the race. Dont worry about your age, dont worry so much about time and those who dont want to see you progress. Stay positive, engage where you can and try the best you can. Everything takes stages and levels. I use to think by the time I was 22 I'd be a superstar. Then I gave myself until 25 etc. When I started competing against the time I lost figor and tact. I then began to focus on areas of enhancement. Particular writing, I sucked at it. I eventually picked up a few books went to writing shops. after that vocal lessons. I invested in myself and still do. Nonetheless many artist give up the hope in exchange for stability. I feel you. I haven't been stable since 2010. Its not the coolest thing driving a 97 vehicle that drinks all your money from repairs. And renting a room to afford things that will aid in your success. Its really what we chose. Trust that the angels will guide you. The lesson is in the struggle not the victory.
Chemical talent is a big factor with a singer, songwriter, producer. Its no different from a marriage or having a best friend. When there is a fit there just is. I adore creating and free styling. The internet is strong yes. I get tracks from many DJs/Producers and sometimes I have to write 3-8 takes just to find the perfect tone. Thats because the chemistry isnt there. Somewhere Something is lost. Although I landed a lucky one with the World Wide single Drifted released by DJ Favorite, I have had many offers on the table but did not fulfill the tone. Its life. I dont get upset about it. but… Thats one thing the internet cannot provide. The digital world has no real emotion. Thus its tough to survive on one alone. So heres to Eli Pinto AKA 3RDIMENSION. He got his first start with Infected Mushroom and Silent Hill & now with digital sounds through Capital Rec. His latest single you can find called house of cards feating vocalist Sandra. If you are a DJ A MUST ADD! You wouldn't believe if I told you but the guy is a musical wizard. What I have shared with you is about a 7 compared to the 3 Albums of 10's we created from Nov until July this year. I dont know what I'm preparing for but its in the air. When it comes I'll face it like a Shooting star. Catch me if you can. I love you.
Music is my therapy. When Im angry or sad I take it out on my pad. This morning I'm writing a song and I named it Love & Apology. Very upbeat with a twist. Its a love song with an apology thus the title, You ever feel as though you regret your behavior? I think I lost the man of my dreams. As I am finishing this blog I realized all the pain I felt from within is now transferred with a pen. Thank you Voice, Emotions & Song. -N.R.