I remember when I heard the dude from Goo Goo Dolls do a cover of that Supertramp song and it was really inspiring for me. And guess what; sue me if it is less inspiring to me at this point in my life. Sometimes I wish things would just work out. I wish that everyone would just buy my music and love it and beg for more. I wish I could just make incredible connections and play for huge, excited audiences after making just one phone call. I also wish I could hold my breath underwater for forever because swimming is the shit. I released my first single through CDbaby about a week ago. I have no idea yet how it's selling, what people think of it, or anything else. All I know is it's out there. Finally, my music is out there. And that's an inspiring thought for me to keep in mind.
This weekend I made a trip up to Spokane with my mother and two of my brothers. This is my first time in the city. So far I've bought a bed, walked over four bridges, and gotten a pretty girl's number. But she has a boyfriend anyways. Oh well. I like it here. I'm excited to move here permanently. Speaking of which, today marks one day less than one month until I move here! It feels so crazy. I don't know how I'm going to record on my own here. I don't know how long it's going to take me to find a job. All I know is that it's going to happen, and it's going to work out. It's colder here than in Portland, and I'm okay with that. I don't like being diabetic.
It's November, and while everyone around me seems to be whining and complaining about the cold, I am enjoying it quite immensely. It's a good excuse for me to put off running errands outside of my house so that I can stay inside and work on music. I'm going to miss portland, and I'm also very excited to relocate to Spokane. Excited and nervous at the same time. My songs are sounding great, my voice is getting better, and I'm working harder everyday on the music. This move to Spokane marks the beginning of the time period during which I have time to decide whether I am "all-or-nothing" in music. This is my deciding period. I want to do it, and I also have to be realistic. If you're reading this then I guess I want to ask your opinion; listen to my music and let me know what you think; can I make it?