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Jamming is what I love doing.

So I was talking to a friend of mines, he was talking to me about doing busking together in the city. Him on saxophone and me on an acoustic guitar. We been jamming as of late at my house. Jamming on some music with peeps is always awesome.

RANT: People are getting fucking stupid.

I honestly don't appreciate it whenever someone in my circle of friends gets involved with my relationship with Faith and tells her or me we're not good for each other and gives that talk that's not motivating for either of us or isn't even supportive. I had to cut some people out of my life because of those fucking assholes getting in the way of everything. Even people are giving my boo shit and saying bad things about her and everything. When will people grow up and be respectful of others and leave their petty drama out of our lives? She also got cyber bullied by a bunch of online computer thugs, nearly sexually assaulted by some fucking old faggot, and Karma's a bitch man. They can all burn in hell!

There's also been other problems I've encountered in 2013 where people supposedly gave me a hard time out of all my circle of friends and weren't being supportive. They doubted me, talked that lip about me, gave me crap, or didn't treasure the friendship or support they had for me this year. It was awful. I am not quite sure if people turned to a piece of shit, or the world has always been like that. I know people might or might not like me or Faith being together, but there's no need to judge her or persecute me and her for being together and making the best move to get back together which is the right thing to do. Also, people seem to have been provoking me on the social-media by not being supportive of what I do or me as a person or friend. It's fucking bullshit to be quite honest.

I am not gonna mention any names, but there is a lot of shit that's made my year pretty awful for the first two months. But it wasn't until me and Faith fully reconciled when things started to get better. People should be happy for us, happy that things are getting better, and everything else.

Reconciliation.

After 1 1/2 month of a strained relationship with each other and everything else that was going on, me and Faith decided to get back together. Rebuild everything that was lost and making sure we can develop our friendship into a longer and stronger lasting relationship. Currently, me and Faith are listed in a complicated relationship on each other's Facebook profiles. So I am glad God answered my prayers and that I won't be tempted to look for anyone else anymore. I am hoping no one says anything bad about Faith because despite what me and her been through together, she's a good woman and she doesn't deserve anymore hardship. But life's good man. I am glad things are back the way it should be.

I had a fun time working at the factory in SF.

So this week, I worked at the factory. At a vocational center I go to to get job counseling. It was a fun time working this week waking up at 7 in the morning and assembling all those things. It was absolutely amazing, and though I hate waking up in the morning, I really enjoyed working at the factory this week. I'm gonna miss doing that. But I'm gonna enjoy some fun time at home getting more hours of sleep, while looking to get a job somewhere else in SF.

I still work at American Greetings though. But I think it's time to move on soon once I get a new job. Not many hours since December.

Me and Faith are patching things up.

Patching things up with my ex Faith. We're just friends right now. We'll see what happens. I deleted my dating profiles on POF and OKCupid because I felt it was pointless and it wasn't really a priority to look for somebody so soon after me and Faith split up. But me and Faith are friends right now and working on our friendship. Picking up the pieces and making amends.

Getting my shit straight.

I'm taking the next step to get myself in check. I am learning how to use Ableton Live to make some new music. Plus all that job hunting too locally. And I'm already over my ex and patiently waiting for the right woman or opportunity for dating when the time is right. I am stoked for 2013 overall. I am thinking and dreaming big and I'm most definitely not looking back and moving forward.

Doing well so far.

I've been doing well over the past few days actually. Just looking for a second job so I can make some more bank. Despite some of the drama over the past few days, I am really focused and determined to make 2013 a memorable year. I've been jamming with friends and working on my own music solo. Not really worried about romance right now, but I am patiently waiting for the right one when it happens. Not rushing it though! But life's good regardless.

Moving on.

Me and my ex of 6 years are not together anymore. I've made a lot of mistakes, things didn't work out. But since she won't take me back, I already decided I am gonna move on with my life and learn from my mistakes and stay single. I won't go back into the dating scene until things are looking up for me and the right woman will come. I'm not rushing it, but I am gonna do better next time.

Me and Faith broke up.

Keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be okay. I know me and Faith broke up tonight, but I am hoping something will work out for me eventually. I known Faith for 6 1/2 years, and now she is leaving me because of a stupid mistake I made a year ago which she just found out. And she won't take me back either.

But it's official. Me and Faith are not together anymore. I'm gonna stay single and wait for everything to heal. Me and Faith were together on and off like a switch for 6 1/2 years, and there was a lot of shit that went on since then. But she given up on me and is now acting very negatively towards me on her pages and the relationship really soured. Even the things she's been saying about me is blown out of proportion.

It sucks because, I invested 6 years into this woman and after all the shit we've been through together, now she's giving up on me because of a stupid mistake I made on NYE 2011 and never giving me a chance again.

I am no angel, but I tried to be a good boyfriend to her despite the ups and downs. I really thought this woman was the one for me. Apparently not. And it's her loss for breaking up with me and ranting about me in the social-media. I'm moving on, and I am determined to make sure life will be still amazing.

Frustrated!

The Bay Area music scene isn't what it used to be. I've been playing in SF since 2001, and making dedicated fans and success here is more frustrating than trying to pay the rent. Plus all the venues make it impossible for local bands to exist nowadays because of pay-to-play. Finding people to play music with here is even worse because they're more into the whole DJ and hip hop thing, and the rock bands here are all metalcore and there's no place for the music I'm trying to put out. Dot-com yuppies are making this place harder to thrive on anything artistic. Long story short, I am originally from the Bay Area music scene and it sucks the life out of being a musician now. I am glad there's the Internet because that helps people pay attention to what I'm doing. I'm glad I have fans outside of California that actually care...

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