Its always hard as an artist to find balance.. the balance between creativity and business efficiency, the balance between work and your personal life, the balance between self-promotion and over inflation.
I cant tell you how uncomfortable it makes me feel to hear myself sing on recordings or watch myself in videos even after years of performing. Even the confidence I appear to have while performing on stage is mostly out of forced habit.
Just saw a special on the making of Smile by Brian Wilson. It took him over 30 years to make that record. He is probably the only true genius in American popular music and he was so anxious that he could barely rehearse during most sessions because he would obsessively doubt the validity of his masterpiece. I wanted to scream at him through the screen and tell him he was so special unique and talented. It made me realize that i should be talking to myself that way. Just a thought.