Well its been 2 weeks since the video went live and I've had 483 hits as of this evening. The most exciting part is that "someone" from Nashville contacted me and is taking the song to his producers for approval to cut a record! Won't say who....not yet! Stay tuned!
I am keeping a journal here of all the reactions to the video. They speak for themselves. Heartbreaking!
**I'm a 'Nam Vet, who rents a room to a Gulf War Vet...who prettymuch Lives What You're Singin'-About here. (I'm exhorcizin' my own Personal Demons by recordin' a CD of Nam-Songs by end-of-Summer, hopefully.) John (Let's call him) is your Classic PTSD "Survivor"...Marine Gunnery Sgt, war-wounded, now perpetually-dodging 2 Warrants from Up-North. WON'T join the DAV since he's facing probable jail-time, if-located. DOES drink excessively/only job he can hold is as an Occasional House-Painter (Which he's good-at, when-sober-enough.)
His "Mistakes" have left him a permanent fugitive...and Alcoholic facing earlier-Death. This country owes him some-better, and Your Song brings-Home that point very-well.
**Good song for Toby Keith, do you know him?
**That was so impressive. I can’t imagine all these people have gone through. You did a fantastic job.
**WOW! that is so true it brought tears to my eye's
**Great song! I love music that encourages us veterans with the invisible wounds of war to feel, face, and heal the pain we carry. I have embedded your video off of Youtube into my "Feel & Heal Music" page on my site. Please let me know if you are cool with that. If you have any other genres of the song I would love to hear them.
With HOPE, Kevin Taylor Executive Director HOPE4PTSDVETS.ORG
I'm very excited about my new updated video for "Kept It All In And Drank It All Out". This song is and video is dedicated to my father who suffered from PTSD his entire life. I have dedicated my life to getting more support for our soldiers so that they and their families do not have to go through what I did. Please watch the video and help me in my quest. Only God knows where this is going to take me but if I can help one soldier, than my mission is complete. A special thanks to my friend Chick Smaldino for producing the video.
This song is based on the story of my father. ..Lt.. ..Col.. William Jack Rose, 503rd Airborne Division of the ....US.... Army.� A brilliant man who was tormented his entire adult life by PTSD (post traumatic stress).� Unfortunately, there was no help available for the soldiers of WWII. The only option was to “suck it up, and take it like a man”. Consequently, the only relief he got was from drinking, resulting in blackouts, out of control raging and verbal abuse to all who lived with him, including and mostly my mother.� My father was a great man with a heart of gold who in spite of his problem, commanded respect from whoever had the privilege to know him. He was the one who got me started with music. I owe him so much!
Every song has a story and I wanted to share my inpiration for writing "On The Hills of Whitesville". In 1967 my father in law, Les Dutchess, bought a 100 year old farm house located on the hills of Whitesville, NY. The house had no windows, no doors, but somehow, he saw the promise that it held. One year later the house was habitable and now our new hunting camp and getaway. To this day the house remains the same as it was, with a few minor upgrades. Literally, nothing has changed. The kitchen is the same, the old wood stoves are the same, and I can even look in a corner and see where my husband and I, who were dating at the time, sat in a chair and kissed. (we'll be married 38 years). Babies have been born and grown. Les is no longer with us, but his spirit is every where we look in that farm. For 40 years our families have been congregating for weekends of fun in that house. One day, I took a blanket and my guitar and walked off in to the woods. I no sooner sat down when I was overwhelmed by the beauty and the serinity of my soroundings. Whithin minuntes, I wrote this song. And to this day I always feel that the land gifted me with this song.
After being a songwriter for my entire adult life, and 38 years of marriage, my husband finally put his foot down. He said "you've never, ever, written a song about ME!" He pointed out something that I already knew. But I knew that writing about something like our marriage was going to be very hard to do. Plus, I didn't want to write a mushy love song that would put people to sleep. So I set out on a mission to finally write a song about the man I've spent most of my life with. Our marriage hasn't always been perfect, and we've had our major problems, but I think I came up with a song that sincerely conveys how I feel about this man and at the same time write a song that many people could relate to. Let me know what you think