My own father decided to take his life
I’m dying but no amount of crying can make it right
But that’s life, I don’t think there ever was a plan
No faith, no fate, just things I don’t undertand
I understand that we ain’t living in no wonder land
That’s a lesson learned when an adolescent becomes a man
Pitch it to me straight, I don’t need it underhand
His lover tried to cheat my brother out a hundred grand
Running scams but fuck being a wanted man
If I hit rock bottom then I’ma be the Son of Sam
Not to bite, but once again that’s life
Not to mention my brother got shot twice
In the leg and caught a bullet in his hip
An inch higher, he’d have to use a bag to take a shit
I can’t take the stress weighing heavy on my shoulder blades
I need the road to take my woes away, know the way?

[HOOK]
I been through it all, dealing with the pain
Gotta keep climbing, show ‘em what I’m made of
And you don’t know, you don’t know, you don’t know
You don’t know me at all

I’m 21 and I’m still acting immature
And I don’t think I’ll ever stop being insecure
I guess every day’s another day
I’m still dealing with the stress that my mother’s gay
And why my neighborhood’s so racist
And why I’m talented but feel I won’t make it
Got no patience
Cause you could be the illest spitting still it’s all about location
And what you look like
It doesn’t really matter what you’re saying all that matters is ya hook’s right
And can they dance to it
And Kwame keeps telling me to dumb it down
I’m like a can’t do it
But that’s how you get the bigger checks
My body’s dying from the alcohol and cigarettes
This past year man my life flipped vertical
I gotta chill this is getting too personal

[HOOK]
I been through it all, dealing with the pain
Gotta keep climbing, show ‘em what I’m made of
And you don’t know, you don’t know, you don’t know
You don’t know me at all
Sometimes I’m like, fuck women, I just wanna fuck women
It’s just lust cause I’ll never have no trust in em
I’m a closed book, I can’t keep no parts open
Cause when I do I always end up with my heart broken
I can’t go through it again
I guess, it’s justified when I do it to them
And I’m in an inferior state
Watching everything around me deteriorate
I swear, if someone asks me, “Why the fuck you rhyme again?”
Cause I’m not tryna be a fireman
Other times I just lie to them
Man I wish I didn’t have to say hi to them
And I ain’t tryna react
But I know, deep down they think I’m tryna be black
So listen closely
This is what you don’t see
Look me in the eyes
You don’t know me

[HOOK]
I been through it all, dealing with the pain
Gotta keep climbing, show ‘em what I’m made of
And you don’t know, you don’t know, you don’t know
You don’t know me at all

And they say, baby it’ll be alright
Dad I’ll see you in my dreams when I sleep at night
Promise I won’t cry as them days go by
I’ma see you smiling at me when I’m looking up at the sky
And I’m grateful that I went through all this pain
Cause nothing could ever hurt me again
It cuts deep but it still won’t show
And I can try to tell them
But they still won’t know
And they don’t know (repeat)