15 Months

Fifteen months, first deployment
I figured he’d be back by June
Just a little late to meet his baby
Thinking of it now makes me swoon.

Sweep the house and run my errands
Fill my day with lists of things to do
Seems like every moment’s filled with thinking
Of a different way to tell him “I love you”.

The first will be around again on Monday
Another month that we’ll be overdue
He fights a lonely war out in a desert
He fights a war to save a mortgage too.

Midnight and the candle in the kitchen
Flickers once and rises clear and bright
Hugs and tears, white lies and bedtime stories
Questions without answers, wrong or right.

The envelope is worn where it’s been handled
I read the letter nearly every night
Some days I just hold it in my fingers
Or pressed between my with all my might.

I declare
I declare
Lord, I am scared
I declare

Sometimes when the distance dances heavy
And the danger looms above me where I lay
I know it’s only his for that I’m worried
While I am safe and he is far away.
While I am safe and he’s so far away.

Lyrics By: Sam Misner
© Poor Player Records/Misner & Smith 2010