Joke

I will try to destroy this life before anyone else can. I will spend time in my hell you will never understand. I will say, "Fuck you" to God and then go kneel down to pray. I will name the things I want, I will wreck them everyday. When life is lived like this it's a wonder to survive. With so many brain cells destroyed I should not be alive. Where I see beauty on this Earth I will try to shut it out. When I don't feel enough hurt I will try to just dull it down. So when I am dead and gone I hope you will find my note and laugh at my life lived so wrong it was all the hangman's joke.