As if I’m not here
the doctors discuss
the risks, the options, my chances,
as if I’m not …

Their words are like stones,
dragging me down
Even when I don’t understand them,
their words …

CHORUS
Outside these walls,
people have lives
The children play in the park
where the first spring blossoms bloom

If I want to live
some parts have to die
Make me cold, make me dark, make me still,
if I want to …

My body’s my friend,
but I push it so hard
And I never listened

I try to relax
and I roll up my sleeve
so my arteries fill up with poison
I try …

So hard to ignore,
the fear deep inside
When I see it in eyes all around me,
so hard …

CHORUS

Life isn’t fair
but the alternative’s worse
So I’ll take whatever they give me,
however unfair